Am I asexual? What's wrong with me?! Watch
I have never had a boyfriend or a "thing" with anyone. I make out with boys when I'm drunk fairly often. I often get very bored quickly with kissing them, probably because I have no emotional connection to these strangers!! I remember when I had my first kiss when I was 15 my first thought was "yes!! this means I'm not a lesiban", (I guess even then I felt different to my friends), and tbh almost all kisses since that have been utter crap. Recently I got off with a male friend that I fancy and it was so much better. But I knew he wouldn't like me so I didn't do anything about it and it didn't go anywhere. (I have quite low self confidence)
I have had crushes on girls, particularly those that seem to me to be/are bisexual. I've often wondered if I'm bi or lesbian. However, once I know them as a friend the crush goes away, so I think its more of wow that girl is so cool I want to get to know her! I'm intrigued what I would feel if I kissed a girl..
I do fancy boys and I'm friendly and chatty, get told I'm pretty etc. I'm not the MOST sociable person but I'm no introvert and theres nothing wrong with me. I guess I don't have that many good friends who are boys.
I am a bit underweight and I hate it, which affects my self confidence a lot.
Sexually I feel dull. But at the same time I don't care enough to change it. I want a boyfriend because I want people to think/to convince myself that I'm normal... wtf?
If anyone feels the same or has any advice I'd really appreciate it!
I know that sounds really patronising but it was true for me.
You're not asexual, you're just unfortunate as the above poster said too.