Since starting my second year at MMU in September 14, I have felt totally disinterested in the course content, socially rejected, lonely at home and anxious around my course-'mates'. I'm struggling to keep up with work and no longer take any interest in what I learn or produce.
I think I have a social anxiety problem too.. I think people are always judging me on the bus to uni, judging me in uni and just generally not liking who I am. As a result of this, I've isolated myself from others, stopped going to the gym and playing football in an effort to make my self feel better and give me time to catch up on my work.
Having visited my GP over xmas, he has told me that I'm suffering from depression and anxiety. So I am now on an anti-depressant prescription; not that they are making any difference to me! I still feel terrible every day, not wanting to go to uni or see people as I feel that everyone hates me.
I thought I would study a computing course in hopes of starting a career as a web designer. It suddenly dawned on me that this type of work means staring at a computer screen all day endlessly doing the very thing that is now driving me crazy. That seems like a stupid think to say but its become very lonely! I don't know if this is just a bad depressive phase or whether I should shut up shop now and pursue a different path in life whilst I'm still young!
Has anyone any ideas? :/
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