Here it is.
I've been at college for about 4 months now and I'm already having a horrible time. This is no ones fault but my own but I've always been really lazy and struggle to find motivation. I have over average intelligence but I'm just lazy. I did average in my GCSEs but well under what I was expected and I would of thought this would be a wake up call and that as soon as I got to college id buckle down and work hard but it hasn't happened. I now study film studies, film and video, English literature. I could of studied four but I knew Id be too lazy to take on four. As you could probably tell I wanna work in the film or television industry and Ithink I have the talent but I'm too lazy to do any work even though I know I need to. I always procrastinate and always find something better to do. I always convince my self that I have loads of time but it always creeps up and then I'm screwed. At the moment I'm doing okay in lit and film studies but I think most likely gonna fail film and video due to the unexpectancy of all the work I'd have to do. So if I fail film and video and get kicked out of college because I'm only doing 2, is that it for me? Or can I apply to another college? I'm in my first year