Hey guys,
Sorry for the long story.
I started a 5 year medicine course in Manchester in 2013. The first semester of 1st year went really well and I was beginning to enjoy university life with a small group of friends; since i returned from my xmas break in January last year everything changed. I have always been incredibly close to my family and have had issues with my self-esteem from a young age, with some social anxiety and difficulty making friends.
I was feeling very lonely and depressed in January being away from my family and home life; i only had made 2-3 true friends, but near towards the end of the year they also distanced themselves from me as we did not agree on the type of house we wanted to share for the next year. So I was approached by an acquaintance (who i thought was my friend at the time) to move in with him and his friend next year; they were all medics and i had made decent friends with them so thought it would be a good idea.
However, things got from bad to worse. We went on holiday together during the summer and there were several arguments between us; it was like living with them in a dorm made me realise what was about to come. Despite my gut feeling, I moved in with them last September. Constant arguments and bickering (as well as harassment from them knocking on my door at night and talking about me in corridors, as-well as demanding money from me) led to my depression getting worse.
In december last year, i finally decided to move out despite not finding a replacement for my tenancy, so losing 2 months rent (£800) until a new tenant has been found. The private student halls i'm living in at the moment is a block of international students, with whom i have no communication and feel even more isolated; my family is in london so i spend every weekend there despite it being so expensive my parents are helping me financially. Despite all my issues, i managed to pass my 1st year with distinctions and merits; but 2nd year is too demanding academically.
I don't think I can cope with the course anymore, and am seeing a psychologist and my GP (who doesn't think medication is necessary at this stage). I'm not sure what to do; should i leave my course due to its effect on my mental health? (when it's not the course but everything but that!?)
Thanks for reading