Everthing going right and wrong and why am i so miserable?

Nothing is making sense at the moment and i dunno how to explain any of this in comprehensible english but i'll try.

For starters, my friends are great, my boyfriend is sort of great, my family is great, but i'm still really miserable and no matter how much i search through my head i can't find a reason.

I had a really good day yesterday, i went shopping with my best mate and then went out dancing till 1am. I was really really happy and now its all seem to come down.

My boyfriend was ill all week and now he is better he doesn't wanna see me. I understand he likes to have time alone, but why does he need so much of it. It feels like he hardly ever wants to see me and even when he does it feels like he doesn't really want me there and i'm just in the way or as a novelty for his friends to actually talk to a girl without trying to get into her pants.

I hate being alone, but i also hate being fussed over when i'm miserable, so my friends worry about me and i have to shut myself in my room for fear of biting someones head off and then i cry and make myself even more miserable for no apparent reason.

Its my dads birthday and i had to call him and apologise that i haven't posted his present yet, i haven't even wrapped it up.

I feel like i'm bending over backwards for everything at them moment, i'm juggling my uni work, my mates, my job, my boyfriend, my family, my extracurricular activities and its all piling up. I have one day a week where i don't have to do anything and sometimes not even that. It feels like everyone is doing their best to make life difficult for me when i know they are not.

In a weird way life is better and worse now that it ever has been. Everything is a contradiction in terms and i just wish i could go to sleep and when i wake up everything will be calmer and i can do some uni work (of which so far i have done none, because my head about to explode) without having to worry about being late for anything or letting down my friends/boyfriend/family or not getting the days off i need from work.

There isn't any sort of question in there i just needed to let off steam and get that off my chest.

Reply 1

beach surf babe

Maybe you need to prioritise things a bit and cut down on some things...another way to look at it is-think small. If you look at the list of work that needs doing it freaks you out so just work through each piece, one by one.

:smile:

Latest

Trending

Articles for you

Writing a psychology personal statement: expert advice from universities

Try out the app

Continue on web

Everthing going right and wrong and why am i so miserable?

Related discussions

Articles for you