i've been with my boyfriend for just over a month now, he's my first boyfriend, so you might say i'm a little experienced. Anyway, my problem is that I keep asking myself why he wants to be with me, if he actuallly does. I don't see myself to have many friends, I'm not good looking and I have very little confidence. Insecurity is a big issue with me.
Take for example, this week. He went home thursday morning, and will be back late tonight. I saw him very briefly wednesday night, as I'd been feeling really depressed and he came to cheer me up. When he left I said I'd see him 'whenever', as I don't want to appear too clingy. I want to hold on to him.
Its now sunday night and I really want to see him tomorrow. The only thing is, I keep saying to myself "will he mind seeing me" etc. Is it normal to ask this?
Apologies if this seems trival or stuid. But I have no self esteem. And this kind of thing may have me in tears soon if I carry on thinking like this.