I had my first girlfriend when I was 13. I remember her who was insanely in love with me first, I was never really interested in her that much but so I agreed to be together just to make her a little happy. Things came out quite fun, although I was really stupid back then and I didn't know how to be a boyfriend, but she enjoyed spending time with me - I guess we were just kids. Continuing, my first kiss was with her and I mean like a proper kiss, adult kiss. Days later I was told by my parents that we are moving out from my home country forever, to live in another.
I was too young to understand the situation back then, and when I finally left I didn't really miss her, didn't even talk to her afterwards. I have no idea how she went through it, probably it wasn't nice. At the age of 15, I came back to her on summer holidays, we were together once more although I was changed, lost and shy - someone totally different to her, not the person she expected so she told me she was mistaken with me. Understandable and I know why, she had reasons, I wasn't myself.
Years later, I have realised that she is someone ideal. She is an example of how my new girlfriend should be like more or less. She was the one I could easily fall in love and be safe with. She defined my ideal woman. Something very strange to admit actually, but I cannot lie about this I need to say it. When I noticed last night that she has broke up with her boyfriend a few months back I thought I could ask how she is, as recently she likes my posts on Facebook for some reason. She is a very kind, friendly and warm person. Honest, and real, we both were hurt in a similar way, she is just like me. Even though it's been 7 years and she might be someone else now I have these random feelings about her.
This is crazy and sad I have to admit. Weirdest thing is that I am now in a fresh relationship and honestly saying I would give it up for her any time.
This isn't healthy to think about, right? I just want an opinion on this. Thank you.
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What is this? First girlfriend and feelings after years. watch
- Thread Starter
- 22-01-2015 03:34
- 22-01-2015 05:16
Not healthy at all