Am I a jerk?

You're clearly too attached here. Sorry if I was a bit harsh before. You really need to take some time away - living together doesn't help. Stay with another friend, family or whoever for a while if you can, because it's not healthy to be reliant on someone else especially when they don't feel the same way, whether they're a friend or a partner. You can change that and trust me, you'll be happier for it

This is precisely my point. You aren't in the mental state to make a rational decision that you won't regret right now so give it some time (a couple of weeks) and then make a rational decision when you're more level-headed.

As it's been 3 days since you asked her out how has she been acting around you since then?

But I don't want to continue the friendship. I just don't feel anything. It feels like I am doing it for the sake of it

But I don't want to continue the friendship. I just don't feel anything. It feels like I am doing it for the sake of it

Exactly, someone above said how has she been acting since THE REJECTION. Please answer

Everything's going to be very raw right now. In my experience sometimes feelings change and you will want her in your life, so don't do anything drastic.

Just like normal. (She has since about 10 seconds after she said no). She wants me to go to a university meal type thing with her tomorrow and I think I'd rather spend the time doing anything else

Just did

Do what you wish to do then. I have clinical depression myself and would really hate to be in your situation right now. It would be helpful for you to talk with a close figure that you trust. Does your family know about your depression, hell, does she even know about it?

Try to stay productive in your daily routine to prevent those negative cycles. If you don't want to have a direct confrontation with her about ending/ your friendship drifting away. See what her reaction is when you become more distant and that in itself will probably give you an indication whether she's really your friend or not.

It isn't raw though. It's being disillusioned

Hoping that I'll never have to say
It's just an illusion, illusion, illusion
Follow your emotions anywhere
Is it really magic in the air?
Never let your feelings get you down
Open up your eyes and look around
It's just an illusion, illusion, illusion

What song is that

No. No one I know does. I've never told anyone except for a doctor about 2 months ago.

Just an illusion by Imagination. I am big fan of music not made in the 21st century. In other words, I love songs from people like Earth, wind and fire, aerosmith, Kool and the gang, Tupac and many more

If your university does offer it, try get counseling from there. If you do feel comfortable enough talking about your depression with a professional.

Question OP were you staying friends in the hope she'd change her mind? Talking things through with her over and over can become monotonous from my perspective.
I am sure that is what one of my old friends was like with me, he liked me and made this quite clear in his body language and how he'd be fine with the distance thing whilst I dated others but made a point of being there for me when I was down to pick up the pieces.
I would say I was only interested as friends and he was like ok but underneath all that was "know I like you and always will and when the time is right we can try again".
This in time scared me off in the end because he would tell his friends he knew this girl he liked and it was me..because one of his friends was my friends unbeknown to him.
I shook him off with I can't be your friend while you see me as a girlfriend. Glad you've moved on to meet someone at university. Best of luck I wouldn't say you were a jerk but someone who perhaps didn't take the hint to move on.

In the end we've kind of patched it up. I was just in a dark mood.