My Grandfather was a man to be admired. I am a man to be envied. The distinction between the two can be massive or minute, depending on who you ask. To be truly worthy of admiration, one needs to exhibit either remarkable character or possess a rare talent of extraordinary benefit to society. Earning mass admiration is exceptionally difficult for most and impossible for some. Envy on the other hand, is for sale. It usually doesn’t come cheap, but it can be bought. I seek that which I am able to obtain. Is my ambition flawed, or is it my incentive?
The society in which I am engaged has grown massive to the point of anonymity. The man who sells me groceries knows nothing about me. The woman who tailors my clothes barely knows my name. My doctor does not know if I am trustworthy or dishonest. For the majority of my daily interactions, the degree of respect in which I can expect to be treated, is unaffected by the quality of my character. What is of profound importance, is the image I portray. The validation I receive, and the privilege I enjoy is attributed to that image I maintain. So that is what I do.
My persona is a designer one, just like my apparel. I adhere to the fashion principle of prestige. My education did not endow me with knowledge, it provided me credentials. My occupation is a title which proclaims me to be of superior intellect and class. My choice of vehicle is not a means of transportation, it is an indication of status. My home is a statement that says “access granted”, and the groups to which I am a member, are strictly exclusive.
Social media is my fountain head from which I am able to spew an incessant barrage of narcissistic drivel. Upon this canvas, self indulgent pictures and status updates become my palate. Arm extended to the precise angle, quality of lighting accounted for, presentation of my best features through calculated orientation, obtaining the most ideal perspective is the perfection of the “selfie”. Mine are always documented at exotic locations, desirable situations, and flattering representations. Like a graffiti artist compelled to seek recognition, my digital billboard states, “I was there”. The only difference is my acts of vandalism are less discreet and more obscene. My art is now exhibited to the accommodating masses who reward me with the validation in the form of comments and likes.
My Grandfather would be appalled. If he were still alive I would tell him that his admirable character is the product of his generations’s values, and my enviable image is a product of mine.