Feeling lost.

I am feeling increasingly annoyed at myself! I have so much work to do, all my fault, mixing up the date for deadlines etc. I have no money, I am being a bitch to my boyfriend and I have no reason to be! I love him so much yet I am being really moody and nasty, and I don't mean to be :frown:

I feel lost, Uni is well... Yeah. I love my course but I don't know if I am entirely happy with where I live. I feel sick all the time, I am constantly tired! I have no money, and I feel like my depression is creaping back up on me! AND to add to it, I hit a low when I scratched my skin raw, my old way of self harm. I don't even know why I am posting this here but I feel I need to write it down.

Sorry for their being yet another 'depression thred'.

Reply 1

ashy

17

welcome to the club! not a day has gone by when i haven't questioned my decision to come here, but it usually passes quite quickly! I've only been well for 1 week out of 7, so i know what you mean. Hang in there, it's not as bad as it seems! You're not alone in feeling that way.

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

OP

I appretiate that, I just feel so stupid, I just want to scream and cry. I keep pretending I am fine, but really I am not, it's frustrating feeling this way :frown:

Reply 3

prash_s90

16

that does sound depressing, just dont get worked up so much; try to to take breaks and just socialise more - it could be the source to make you feel a bit more relaxed ..im not sure if that helps , but good luck anyway, your not alone!

Reply 4

Anonymous #1

OP

Thanks, I think I just needed a rant. Never mind. I'm sure I will be fine. Just feeling low.

Reply 5

The Guru

Anonymous

I am feeling increasingly annoyed at myself! I have so much work to do, all my fault, mixing up the date for deadlines etc. I have no money, I am being a bitch to my boyfriend and I have no reason to be! I love him so much yet I am being really moody and nasty, and I don't mean to be :frown:

I feel lost, Uni is well... Yeah. I love my course but I don't know if I am entirely happy with where I live. I feel sick all the time, I am constantly tired! I have no money, and I feel like my depression is creaping back up on me! AND to add to it, I hit a low when I scratched my skin raw, my old way of self harm. I don't even know why I am posting this here but I feel I need to write it down.

Sorry for their being yet another 'depression thred'.

Hi, you must get yourself a large wall planner, then you can write on all the things you need to do on it and offload all that from your head. They sell cheap ones in the "WORKS" bookshops.

Look at it on a weekly basis and take each day as it comes. Soon you'll be able to pace yourself and you'll be in the swing of things in no time.

I suggest you add on the wall planner not just work stuff, but days out, nights out, shopping trips and going to see your b/f too.

Try to give yourself rest breaks in between your work. :smile:

"Look after number 1 otherwise all your hard work is for nothing".

Reply 6

gracie88

14

Anonymous

I am feeling increasingly annoyed at myself! I have so much work to do, all my fault, mixing up the date for deadlines etc. I have no money, I am being a bitch to my boyfriend and I have no reason to be! I love him so much yet I am being really moody and nasty, and I don't mean to be :frown:

I have this problem too, not that i'm getting dates mixed up but i have so much to do and as a result have told my boyfriend i wanted space to myself when i didn't mean that at all i was just very stressed. Now i think he's upset with me and won't respond.

Plan your work out, have a list and start with the things which have the most importance, you feel better when you can tick things off trust me.

Reply 7

xXMessedUpXx

15

^good advice^

Just try to organise yourself, i know that's not the easiest of things when you have no motivation. hey and feel to have a rant anytime, its usually better to get it off your chest.

Can i ask what led you to self harm again? Only asking as i am/was a self harmer, and i find the best way to try to avoid doing it again, is to know what triggered you and work from there.
I'm sure your bf has probably noticed you're down atm, but maybe he's not sure how to deal with it? Mine tends to back off, but then try to talk to me. And i've been such a bitch before just cos i've felt down, but he knows i don't mean it. But maybe have a chat to your bf? It might help if he knows exactly how you feel?

You say you're worried bout money, well could you look into getting a part time job? Or maybe asking parents for some to tide you over for a bit? Or if its really bad your uni may have hardship funds available. Try to budget and just watch what you spend, i know money (or lack of it) can be stressful but it can be sorted somhow.

And about where you live, is there a reason you don't like it? Is it the people you live with? The accomodation itself? The area? Could you mayeb move somewhere else?

sorry for all the questions, not sure if this is helping :s

Feeling lost.

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