I'm going insane.

Somebody help! I don't know what to do. I can't sleep, but I'm never tired. I can't think straight but I'm focused. Please tell me that someone out there knows how I feel?! The thing that probably bothers me most, though, is that I can't sleep. My mind literally won't let me. Not before 12:30, anyways. I always know when 12:30 comes because I can think normal and sleep. If I try to sleep before that, then either my body just doesn't fall asleep or if I try to make it relax and sleep. At first I thought that it was just because of a girl I like because she was always on my mind.

The spring came and I also don't sleep enough. There are so much pretty girls around and I just have no time to walk around, cause there are so much work in the office to do.

Thanks for reading it and all, but this is different. THIS scares me, and I don't usually scare easily.. Any advice?

That's just your age. And spring.

I'm pretty sure my age doesn't have to do with losing control of my body and mind. Have you ever been forced to take the backseat? Felt like there was nothing you could do? Watched yourself? Watched yourself think, but it's not your mind? Watched your body act, but you aren't the one controlling it? It's scary. Spring and age... They don't do that. Not like how I've been having.

Firstly don't panic! It's only 12.30 before you get to sleep not the middle of the night. Now you're very young so there's probably a lot going on in your body as it is. 16 is quite a transitionary age so you might be under a lot of stress. Must say though that the way you say 'we' and the voices and things is slightly concerning only because that could be setting the scene for serious problems that will definitely require treatment. It's best to nip all of this in the bud now. Sounds weird but make sure you're eating enough and other self care things. Maybe if it continues go and see your GP for a little chat.

Thanks. I usually take care of myself quite well, but what's a GP, exactly?

It seems to be a problem... It's not just late at night that this happens though, is it? Nooo, you are affected at all times. You find yourself shaking. Your eyes twitch. That breath thing happens at other times as well. Just the other day, you were wondering if you had just had a seizure, but knew you didn't. It's ok, though. You know in 2 1/2 hours, you can sleep normally. How many hours of sleep do you think you have missed and not felt the absence of? Plenty, but you can't remember. Yeah, that's being affected too. Sucks, huh? But I'm here. You can't get rid of me. You can't even stop typing. Sucks to suck. Now you can slowly kill yourself from the INSIDE! I mean, your body on the outside seems fool-proof enough. You're used to pain. You have been conditioned to it. You wrestle. It's hard to get much past the physical barrier, but mentally? Try to stop me. I. Dare. You. I know you. I have been here. I have known you. Known your weaknesses. I know your downfalls, what it takes to break you down. Yeah, it's hard to fight yourself because I know everything you think before you do. I'm convincing, too. Those two aren't usually on your side anyways. How long do you think it will be before they are with me? That's right. I own you. It obviously won't last forever. I don't have that kind of power. I CAN last long enough, though. Before I have to go back into hiding. Long enough to break you. From the inside. Just give up. It's that easy. Delve into the comforts of madness. How bad could it be? I mean, the world wouldn't bother you anymore.
No.
No I can't.
I will remain stronger than you.
GO AWAY