It was years ago and during Freshers one of my flatmates kept making passes at me, to the point where I got quite annoyed with him. However, as we all went out as a flat on the last night of the week (big flat, there were 14 of us) I put it behind me and I started to think he was alright. I was wearing short shorts and my midriff was showing and I have a tattoo on my stomach. Got wuite a lot of male attention that night and I enjoyed it, however I did not want to do anything sexual, with anyone. I didn't even get horrendously drunk, even to this day I can remember the club clearly. But after the night out, the guy I mentioned before and another guy from our flat and I went back to our flat and we were playing cards. They were both joking in a flirty way but I told them there was no chance. I know I definitely was NOT interested in either of these guys. I remember drinking a glass of Pepsi and vodka one of them had made and that was all I can remember from that evening, which terrifies me.[/COLOR][COLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961)]
[COLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961)]The next day I woke up completely naked alone in his room and remember feeling extremely sore and embarrassed. What did I do?! He wasn't around so I grabbed my things and ran quickly to my room. It was so confusing but at the time I thought I must have let him sleep with me. I mean, I had been friendly, came back with them both, played cards with them. Anyway, things were really awkward for me after that although I just thought of it as a one-night-stand and a mistake on my part. It was MY issue. I could not keep it from my mind though [/COLOR]
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[COLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961)]Funnily enough, my mental health deteriorated, but until this year I never thought it could have been linked to that. I secluded myself, isolated myself from my friends, became depressed and hardly ever went to uni. I left uni with a 2:2 in the end, which isn't so bad but I felt so ashamed for so long. It worries me to think back to what happened to be honest, it could have been the one guy, or it could have been both of them. I would tell the police, but there is absolutely no evidence to back me up, plus my outfit and the fact I was drunk would go against me (as wrong as it is). I wasn't exactly a virgin before this night either. It's an awful thing to go through but I am starting to work through it and realise it was HIM, not me. I am going back to uni to study mental health nursing.[/COLOR]
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[COLOR=rgba(0, 0, 0, 0.701961)]Sorry for the long post anyway, I wanted to get it off my chest. [/COLOR]
There are also helplines if you wish to talk to someone confidentially about any of your problems.
It may sound stupid but I've heard that hypnotizing can help recall a lot of traumatic things or things you experienced while being unconscious/subconscious. You should definitely check them out.
Because she thinks she's been raped, that would immidiately trigger invented memories. It's the reason why so many people in America think they've been abducted by Aliens.
(meaning she won't be triggered plus she can't consciously lie to herself)