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Help me, I'm not well and i'm dying watch

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    This may be offensive so im sorry in advance


    I have not been mentally well since February. Ever since my dad insulted me and i had the worst day ever which gave me a bit of a breakdown (i made a thread about it: http://www.thestudentroom.co.uk/show....php?t=3139829)

    My anxiety and depression of 4 years now (Anxiety more) is getting worse and i also don't get along with my family at all. My dad is a psychological bully and my mum is a Physical Bully (despite having muscular dystrophy).


    Uni has been a dream for me since i was 5, how is it possible at the age of 19, im STILL IN COLLEGE and FAILING my access course. And because im failing i doubt i will pass my access course to go to uni this september (Crap college in south london with teachers not doing their job properly leading me far far BEHIND). ITS BEEN THREE ATTEMPTS I'VE BEEN TO COLLEGE MAN :cry:


    I think im going to get sectioned soon and be diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder if i can't get into this stupid university i have been trying to get for years. Everyday i go on omegle, moving to girls, cyber****ing them in skype and going extreme on my porn addiction, this is due to the stress i can't take anymore. I can't stop looking at looking at girls asses in public, trying to imagine sex with them on the tube or something. It has gotten worse everyday. Of recent, i even go as far as trying to go online and look for girls desperate to have sex with men for fun (of course no luck for me)


    I'm a sick **** just because my depression has manifested and is getting worse. All i ****ing want is to leave my family, go to uni, and REBUILD MYSELF IN UNI. IS IT THAT HARD?!


    help me someone, ANYBODY
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    Please this is urgent because im also deciding if i should quit college as well
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    Keep on trying man and don't give up, the more you think about giving up the more it will hurt.

    Think of it like this, there's no plan B, only plan A, keep going man I KNOW you can do it, an so should you, try other things to keep your mind off of the anxiety and stress for example a new hobby or something!

    Don't give up man, there's a whole load of people behind you, you just don't know it yet.
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    (Original post by Katutedoki786)
    Keep on trying man and don't give up, the more you think about giving up the more it will hurt.

    Think of it like this, there's no plan B, only plan A, keep going man I KNOW you can do it, an so should you, try other things to keep your mind off of the anxiety and stress for example a new hobby or something!

    Don't give up man, there's a whole load of people behind you, you just don't know it yet.
    It's hard when i'm an introvert and i have unsupportive parents. i AM trying but i fear i will get sectioned as my behaviour is getting erratic.
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    Get help now before it gets worse and before it gets to the stage where you do get sectioned.
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    Get help now before it gets worse and before it gets to the stage where you do get sectioned.
    Can i ask a question?

    What do u think of my issue of my porn addiction. I sleep 4am everyday doing adventours things alone?

    I know im going to get sectioned, i'll give a few weeks... I end up shouting at myself, talking to myself in my room and basically laughing at wrong times. I guess this is how my life was planned.
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    Can i ask a question?

    What do u think of my issue of my porn addiction. I sleep 4am everyday doing adventours things alone?

    I know im going to get sectioned, i'll give a few weeks... I end up shouting at myself, talking to myself in my room and basically laughing at wrong times. I guess this is how my life was planned.
    I will assume you are genuine. I've dealt with porn addiction and related insomnia to a point I was almost compulsively masturbating in public at the worst of my depression. I locked myself in uni library cubicles c. late 2012 to jack off in between lectures. Provided your porn still remains legal i.e. not child porn, beastiality, necrophilia, torture porn, rape porn etc. they will not Section you for this alone. Addiction is manifestation of depression/anxiety issues, compulsive avoidance behaviour and seeking the next artificial 'high' of dopamine. The most worrying legal issue for you here is that you're entering rapist mentality, seeking out flesh-and-blood women to sexually use and abuse them.

    You may be entering a manic phase-I'm prone to hypomania even though I have no official bipolar diagnosis, and I know I'm ring that way when I start yelling at myself, talking out loud in public (say city centre) or laughing inappropriately. At worst this is the start of a psychotic depression. However please please go to a GP, we cannot diagnose you as laypeople here. Most likely they will prescribe you some meds, likely SSRIs before arranging a therapy intervention.

    You can get this sorted and live a great life but you must seek the professional of a GP to begin treatment before you risk breaking the law. Good luck :hugs:
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    I will assume you are genuine. I've dealt with porn addiction and related insomnia to a point I was almost compulsively masturbating in public at the worst of my depression. I locked myself in uni library cubicles c. late 2012 to jack off in between lectures. Provided your porn still remains legal i.e. not child porn, beastiality, necrophilia, torture porn, rape porn etc. they will not Section you for this alone. Addiction is manifestation of depression/anxiety issues, compulsive avoidance behaviour and seeking the next artificial 'high' of dopamine. The most worrying legal issue for you here is that you're entering rapist mentality, seeking out flesh-and-blood women to sexually use and abuse them.

    You may be entering a manic phase-I'm prone to hypomania even though I have no official bipolar diagnosis, and I know I'm ring that way when I start yelling at myself, talking out loud in public (say city centre) or laughing inappropriately. At worst this is the start of a psychotic depression. However please please go to a GP, we cannot diagnose you as laypeople here. Most likely they will prescribe you some meds, likely SSRIs before arranging a therapy intervention.

    You can get this sorted and live a great life but you must seek the professional of a GP to begin treatment before you risk breaking the law. Good luck :hugs:
    Thank you for responding.

    Yes it is getting worse with the porn, maybe i am having a rape mentality which im sure it can be controlled. My porn im sure is good but the fetishes i watch are very disgusting hence these tendicies are causing me grief

    I've had help with CBT, antidepressants EVERYTHING. Nothing worked . I will try my best to find an another alternative treatment if i fail this course.
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    would you not be able to move away from home now, does it have to wait til uni. Sounds like you need to get away from your family. i wish you all the best and hope it gets better for you. might seem like a **** idea but have you tried meditation to calm yourself down etc?
    honestly things will get better, i just wouldn't focus on uni being your only goal, try and think how you can make things better now. be good to people as much as you can and they will be to you in return
 
 
 
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