I have asperger's and ive just moved away from my house/sanctuary which is now condemned. The coffee shop where I used to work constantly is also now closed. Im living in a house which sent me into a panic over the dirt.
I cant deal with the fact that he's my dad. How can I look in the mirror and love myself when I see the physical similarities? I already suffer from real self loathing but now ive just disconnected from myself. I cant reveal this because I still wonder "what if its wrong"?
I am prone to very convincing false memories so I worry that this is one of those. The problem is that he's been followed by accusation after accusation and my mum's accusations match my memories.
What do I do? I cant make this public because it would tear my family apart.My mum already is quite ill and she relies on my dad. My brother has also been sick and neither of them could handle this. If im wrong this would be the most destructive event in our family history.