Im 20 years old and have battled an anxiety disorder / agoraphobia for the past 7 years. Ive tried counseling, medication and the Linden Method in an attempt to get better but in all honestly Ive come further on my own by volunteering and keeping busy / distracted etc.
Im currently at a crossroads and not sure what to do, Ive finished University for the year and the countdown to my second year has started and im panicking already, i feel like i need to get better now before i go back to uni otherwise its seriously going to affect my education, and with this anxiety, im struggling to go to work and even socialize / go out. My mother wants me to go back to the doctors and try medication again but im terrified because the last time i went on tablets the side effects hit me bad, and im determined to do it myself (kind of an ego thing). On top of all this the only girl Ive ever loved is soon to be out of my life due to moving way and no longer being in love with me, which is particularly hard because we had common ground with anxiety and used to be there for each other.
Im just wondering if anybody could give me some advice, im sick of feeling tramped in a life full of fear when i know i have the potential to achieve so much more. (PS. thank you to everyone who made the effort to read this and even reply, its greatly appreciated).