eeurgh i feel pathetic

i seriously cant stop cutting myself, ive had a lot of emotional trauma in the last year or so due to my stupidity and general immaturity. well lots of things have happened and well im just not happy. i was as you can put it f***ed up in the head. everything was out of control
i feel like crying all the time and well i like the release seeing the blood gives me. i dunno but i feel better..actually well feeling the pain just gave me the sense that i can control something.
i feel so guilty and full of self hatred over everything thats happened...but how can i stop cutting..i know its not the best thing to do but i cant stop...

Reply 1

jpowell

15

Have you tried seeking professional help?

Reply 2

Yoda

12

I agree. Not cutting yourself should be easier after you've stopped for a while. Like drugs. I'd imagion, I've never really tried either, never really want to. Yes, I know, I can't spell, I'm not bothered.

Reply 3

Anonymous #1

OP

im too embarased cos i dont want my parents finding out

Reply 4

Yoda

12

Patient-doctor confidentiality and all that. They won't find out.

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

OP

what if the only person you could see was a school councellor? she told me that if she knew of someone self harming she would have to tell someone higher up like the deputy head. and im worried the deputy head will tell my parents

Reply 6

mangomaz

14

Hmmm... I dont know how it all works but maybe see your GP and see if they can refer you to anybody? Do your friends or anyone know you cut yourself?

Good luck getting through it, its a horrible place to be but stay positive and optimistic that you wont be feeling like this forever :smile:

Reply 7

hannah_dru

2

Anonymous

what if the only person you could see was a school councellor? she told me that if she knew of someone self harming she would have to tell someone higher up like the deputy head. and im worried the deputy head will tell my parents

They shouldn't do that. Mine didn't.

Reply 8

Jonesy_LJ

Well I've no first hand experience of this, but I'm told by a counsellor friend of mine that ice cubes can really help you stop cutting.

Whenever you feel like cutting yourself, you take an ice cube and hold it as tight as you can in your hand until it melts. She's very confident that it works, so maybe you could give it a go.

Reply 9

he_is_innocent

Councellors (Sp?) really arent allowed to tell anyone what you tell them unless they consider you to be a real real danger to yourself or to others...does your school have more than one councellor i.e. can you try another one?

eeurgh i feel pathetic

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