about a girl

hey yeah well basically, I met up with this girl last week and we had a cracking time, and got on really well. Yesterday was supposed to be our second date, we were meant to be going to the cinema. She sent me a text at the last min saying that a new flat mate moved in with her and her sis, and that they were all going out. She invited me along and so I did.

Anyways I was really quiet and uninvolved. I'm normally a bit shy but I was worse then usual. As the night progressed I felt more awkward and panicky, knowing it was not going too well. As everyone got more drunk she brought it up, I kind of said I get a bit shy sometimes, and attempted to explain my behaviour. For one reason or another, the explanation was kind of incoherent. I think she may have been weirded out by this. Although we kissed, she was kind of more cold and unaffectionate towards me. Im pretty sure everyone else there thought I was a bit of an aloof dik.

We got on so well in the first date, so shes definitely seen my 'positive' side. However, this has probably been called into question by my behaviour and attitude last night. I sent her a text today apologising, she didn't respond.

See the thing is, I really like her and she likes or liked me which makes it all the more painful. I'm tearing myself apart here, knowing I may have ballsed it up.

Whats to be done eh?
mwah x