I really hate friendships were you always feel as if you don't quite know where you stand; that there's a timebomb between you waiting to explode. This is how I feel at the moment with a friend, although the explosion will probably not be so violent, but I still feel as if it may turn into a sticky mess...
We've been really close friends for a few years now, since year 10, but as people grow they change...and there's this awkwardness, that may be caused by growing apart, or it may be because I had a crush on her, or it may be because she's just really intense, and extremely hard to understand.
With the start of AS I've noticed that she's become more withdrawn, and far less confident, but I feel as if I can't do anything to help her because I'd get sucked back in again, if that makes sense. She's never shared or explained her feelings, I think she sees things as either actions or restraints. I was meant to be one of her best friends and yet I didn't know about her date to the prom, or her new boyfriend. I really don't know how to take that...I just phoned her today about maths homework, and we somehow got into a converstation about my lack of girlfriend, which she was really interested in, and then commented that we never hug, and asked to mess with my hair for her Birthday.
I'm fine at the moment for remaining just friends. I think I've sorted it out. I'm not even sure if she realised she's making me uncomfortable. I know I should speak to her, but a, that's quite hard and I don't know where to start, and b, I know she feels lonely at school atm because of things so I don't want to seem as if I'm pulling away. What should I do?