I am lazy, problematic and chubby.

Hi,

I´m posting as anonymous because I am very embarrassed, even though I know no one on TSR .

When I was a little girl, I was very trim and healthy. When I turned 8, I started becoming chubbier and chubbier until I decided to lose weight. I was ok, albeit a bit plump, until I was 15 which is when I decided to be skinny, and I lost a lot of weight ( from 58 kgs to 49 kgs on a 1.62 frame). That was until last year, when my weight ballooned up. I am still the same height but I weigh 65 kgs.
I´ve joined a gym and go regularly, I am a vegetarian and eat quite healthily. Except for the quantities. Some days I have "perfect diet days" but there are weeks where I go through weird eating phases and binge. I binge then I feel fat and ugly and refuse to go out for fear of embarrassing myself showing my uglyness to the world. I feel worthless.

I have been to the nutritionist, followed her advice etc... yet I just fall back into my binging routine. The truth is I still do not know how to eat well, i.e reasonable quantities. It´s obvious I have emotional issues, but a lot of them stem from my plumpness. I just CANNOT (or WILL not, subconsciously ) eat normally.
Soon I shall have to go swimming during PE (in two weeks), is there any way to make myself look more decent by then if I eat just fruit and vegetables and nothing else (sort of a detox diet) ?

Reply 1

Crimson Black

Anonymous

No, you shouldn't go on a just fruit and veg diet, it won't help in the long run. The best way to do this is to set yourself targets. I think I'm right in saying that you don't actually want to lose weight but actually want to become slimmer? There's a difference. You should not worry about your actual 'numbers' weight. Measure your waist etc, and then every week measure it again - it'll help let you know that you're making progress, which in turn will fuel your ambition.

You could learn how to cook decent foods? One food I really like and that isn't fattening is soup, and it keeps you full for ages, so I don't feel the need to snack; and you can eat it with a couple of slices of bread too. It's almost like a snack. :p:

If you're about to binge eat, think to yourself: "I will feel really bad afterwards, I shouldn't do this". It's hard, I know, but self-disclipline is a really important aspect of fitness. Good luck! :smile: