im 18 and a few weeks ago i posted on this forum because i was worried that i had never been kissed. i am a young-looking, shy, quite naive person and always felt really backward for my age. i didnt have any male friends and was worried about talking to guys. so i posted on this forum saying that id never been kissed and you guys all posted back saying, dont worry, itll happen and were generally very reassuring.
two days ago i went to a friends party and i got very drunk for the first time in my life. we played drinking games, which ive never done before, and i was in a pretty bad state. i started making out with a guy who id been talking to earlier. we went upstairs to my friend's room and...basically, we had sex. im not sure how it went that far. one moment we were just kissing, and the next i was lying on the bed, not really knowing how id got there.
im still in a state of shock. how the hell did i go from never been kissed to losing my virginity...in an hour? a week ago i felt like a prude, now i feel like a slut, for sleeping with a guy id only met a couple of hours ago. we didnt use a condom either and yesterday i went with my friend to take the morning after pill.
what happened? was it just that i was drunk? have any of you been in a similar situation? i dont really know how it happened. after reading your posts, i decided not to try and make my first kiss happen...but somehow it just did, and then much more.
i dont even know what i should be feeling right now. just very very confused.