Will it ever get better?

This thread is a bit of a massive rant type thing but i've been depressed for a couple of years and there's always problems and i always find something to be annoyed/upset about...firstly i'm trying to quit my job which i can no longer handle (only work twice a week but the people there are horrible, the hours are too long and sitting on a till drives me insane) so after almost 2 years my mums agreed to call them up for me but it's making me feel stressed because should i really quit? i'll be totally broke until i find another job and what if i don't find another one i won't be able to afford driving lessons which are going terrible anyway and seem to have no end...??

Another problem...i've been going out with a guy for just over a week and am really into him but he doesn't seem to like me half as much and made a comment that he doesn't know if he has moved on since his last relationship so wants to take it really slowly with me and is unsure about if we're going to last etc.....i think i'm driving my best friend away with my constant crying/complaining and it feels as if she's giving up on me....i'm petrified of uni and worry constantly about losing my friends when I go there... in contrast to my best mate who can't wait to get away which makes me feel like she loves me even less....
I have had a period for 3 months (haven't had sex) so i'm worried there's something seriously wrong with me and my mums always too busy with my little brothers to call the doctors (i would but i wouldn't know how to get there as my house is miles from the nearest one)

.. Just meh...i feel like there's no hope with anything and i'm probably being dramatic but since i got home from work at 4 i haven't stopped crying.
Thanks if you've actually read this whole thing :rolleyes:

Reply 1

Vohamanah

Don't depend on your mum - you can quit a job by yourself! If you don't want a confrontation write them a brief, polite letter saying you intend to end your employment in ___ weeks (there might be a minimum notice, check your employment contract if you have one) but you have enjoyed your time working there (Lie through your teeth, they'll be giving you a reference) and hand it to your supervisor next time you are in.

Get looking for another job now, ideally before you quit this one. It'll give you peace of mind to know there is a job waiting for you.

Driving lessons drove me crazy as well. Try to persevere with them. It would be great to have the independence to drive. If you really can't handle them then stop. That's what I did! :biggrin:

Planning to start taking them again when I am more settled and can handle my terrible driving without bursting into tears every lesson like I used to! :redface:

Sit down and have a good talk with this guy about where things are going. Is he ready for another relationship? Does he need some more time? At least then you will know where you stand.

If you are suffering from depression it is bound to be hard on your best mate. After all, she's the one you will spill stuff to and it can get monotonous. My boyfriend has depression and I get annoyed sometimes, but at the end of the day I still love him and I'll put up with him despite his flaws. Your best friend is your best friend and I'm sure she still cares about you. Maybe do a couple of gestures to let her know how grateful you are for her being there. Buy her a little box of chocolates or something. Just a little thing will make her see you care. Tell her you are afraid you are drifting apart and you don't want that.

Uni is bound to be scary :hugs:

Especially if you are moving away, but I swear once you get there it will be a whole different life. There is no point worrying about it before you get there. I'm sure you'll make loads of new friends and as long as you make the effort to keep in contact, won't lose your old ones.

Phone the doctor about your period. It will be a big weight off your mind. If your mum is too busy to drive you ask her for some money so you can get a taxi. Or maybe even a bus if one goes near?

I used to come home from work and sob when I started working at the place I work now. I thought everyone was horrible and I just seemed to always do everything wrong. Now I've been there over a year (Longest serving member of staff, shows what a nice guy my boss is!) he knows the place would collapse without me. Heh heh! So he's careful to be nice to me now because he knows I'll leave if he upsets me again. But then since you've been at your place for 2 years I think it is time to think about quitting if it makes you feel like this. Good Luck and I hope things start to look up. Sorry about long post!

Reply 2

matt@internet

Try to sort out a job berfore you quit this one. Just look around for opportunities.

Reply 3

scribble_girl

pinkpinkuk summed it all up in my opinion, but in answer to the thread title?

Yes, it will :smile:

Reply 4

Vohamanah

scribble_girl

pinkpinkuk summed it all up in my opinion, but in answer to the thread title?

Yes, it will :smile:

I knew I'd missed something out :rofl:

Reply 5

Unique Brunette

pinkpinkuks reply is great!

u know how ppl say that u fall in love when u least expect it, the same thing will happen with ur current situation - it will get better when u least expect it. one day when u think its no longer going to change, it will.

good luck :hugs: