Why does it mean so much to me?

Ive been in a football team now for 9 years since I was a kid and Ive always enjoyed it, not just the football but the team etc have a good laugh. I was kicked off once and I was just so shocked and depressed until I begged to be back on again im just too sensitive which is strange for a guy. Ive also like one of the women whos like twenty years older than me for about 8 years, im confused whether I fancy her or just like her as a friend, it doesn't matter anyway cause nothings going to happen I wouldn't want it to lol. I do get out and have a social life but nothing is the same as going to football. Im starting uni soon and made the choice to live at home so I can still play with the same team (not sure Id like football in any other team) plus I prefere living home anyway. Thing is im now worrying about being on placements and whether I'l still be able to go.

Ive always thought that im strange and stuff and this is just an example, why am I like this I just couldn't bear to quit :confused:

Reply 1

wackysparkle

14

There's nothing wrong with how you feel - i know i felt quite attached to certain things before i came to uni.

I get the feeling that you are attached more-so to football as you feel that once you are in uni, you are losing some of the normalacy that you have always had - and probably sub-consiously scared of starting anew if you will, having to once again join a new team and go into the process of being accepted. Maybe you just don't want to have to start over again, and are clinging onto the stuff that you are used to now -- so naturally you are cilnging onto football, probably one of many things that you don't want to let go of

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

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wackysparkle

There's nothing wrong with how you feel - i know i felt quite attached to certain things before i came to uni.

I get the feeling that you are attached more-so to football as you feel that once you are in uni, you are losing some of the normalacy that you have always had - and probably sub-consiously scared of starting anew if you will, having to once again join a new team and go into the process of being accepted. Maybe you just don't want to have to start over again, and are clinging onto the stuff that you are used to now -- so naturally you are cilnging onto football, probably one of many things that you don't want to let go of

Thanks, its not really the football its just ..the team and people :confused:

lol sounds weird but If I quit I won't have the same confidence I have and everything will be boring. I think its this woman that Ive liked since I was a kid shes always helped me out and stuff I don't want to not know her anymore. I like the team too, its probably because Ive been there for so long but other lads have quit the team for uni etc no problem and have been there as long as me :confused:

Maybe they have a better social life?

Reply 3

wackysparkle

14

it's nothing to do with your social life at all really
i just think that this has to do with the fact that you are in a safety zone, where you are used to everything around you - your parents are there to look after you etc
uni is a big step - you lost that - you risk it -- you have to fend for yourself, leave your home and make new friends, - live with flatmates
really its a huge jump from being at home taken care of - to the real world
its common that you don't want to lose the team + this woman, you like having them around, you like the feeling of being with them - and don't want that to go -

Why does it mean so much to me?

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