i'm scared

for the last couple of weeks i've been bothered by a lot of things and maybe some advice would do me some good.

i'm from the uk originally, but been living in asia for so many years i've lost count. anyways, lately i've been stressed over universities and my boyfriend. it's starting to seem less and less likely that we'll end up going to the same uni or even in the same area. apart from this, i can't concentrate on studying for my final A2 exam cause i'm so worried. the whole fear of leaving behind everything, my home, and moving to somewhere unknown really gets to me now and as it gets closer to september it gets worse.

as much as i deny it, i'm going to miss my family a lot. and i thought having my boyfriend with me would make me less homesick and happy but since it appears that's not going to happen, i just keep thinking about it negatively.

and to finally top it off, i'm not sure about my course. i want to be doing drama and living my dream but my parents didn't agree. i just want to be happy but i doubt thats going to happen when i move back to the uk.

sorry this seems really draggy, but it's hard to talk about it to my parents or my friends. :s-smilie:

Reply 1

tinypony

Once you're in the UK you could eventually rebel against your parents and study drama. Otherwise get really involved in the drama society and hold out until you're done.
You could have a long distance relationship. How far will you be apart from each other?
Good luck!

Reply 2

playpretty

well it looks as though i'll be going to leicester and he'll prob go to liverpool. i did apply to liverpool, but the better uni for me would be leicester and i'm practically forcing myself to think this way for my own good. i just really love him and need him to be by my side.

Reply 3

Melana

On the drama thing - I'm actually doing more drama through the drama society some of my friends studying it are! I'm also doing more of it than my actual course :s! It's always been more important to me than my course, but this way I get the best parts of it, without the pressure of getting marked on it.

I can completely understand being scared about it all - it's such a major change, and you're taking a lot of chances - I was really nervous about it too. Once results come through, you can meet a lot of people going to your uni over the internet, it's really reassuring, and definitely helped me.

You'll find that, yeah, of course you'll miss people, but you meet so many new amazing people when you get to uni that it's instantly easier. There's always trains between you and your boyfriend, I'm sure if it's meant to be, you'll find a way. I'm sorry you're feeling so low about this. *Hug*

Reply 4

Anonymous #1

playpretty - what are u going to study?

Reply 5

Dragon Warrior

i wouldn't worry too much about the long distance relationship, i have a friend whom i work with who has a girlfriend in yorkshire which is about a 3 hours drive away up the motorway, if you're really attached to your boyfriend long distance relationships work fine.

Reply 6

playpretty

studying media. yeah, i don't doubt the long distance relationship will work it's just that i've gone through so much this year and he's always been that support that's held me up. anyways, thankyou guys for the advice and it makes me feel better that there are people out there who understand how i feel and everything :smile: