Things falling apart.

You poor thing, u really are going through a hard time :frown:

Have you tried talking to someone ? Sometimes just talking to someone can help, as u are able to get out all your worries / anxietys etc.

Maybe u could go to your gp, they may be able to refer you to someone.
Hope things get easier soon :hugs:

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Yoda

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Anonymous

My life and the lives of those around me have completely gone to ****. I can't go into too much detail for fear of being recognised, but I've been ill for years which has been really draining. During this time I've lost the best friend I've ever had, who I loved so much, other very close/best friends have turned against me and one is so closed off now that I doubt they trust me at all. I've started cutting again. Don't even feel it at all anymore. Both my parents are life-threateningly ill, and a life long friend is at death's door. Some really awful **** has happened in the last year that'll almost definitely lead to me becoming a pariah and losing what's left of my friendships when it all comes out, which will be any day now and the wait is killing me. I can't seem to stop drinking. I can't focus on school work at all, and I need very good grades to go to uni in september. I can't stand my father. I mean I wish he'd die. All he does is put me down which would be fine except its all anyone seems to do these days. I don't know what I want to hear really, I just wanted to get as much of that down as possible. It seems like I have a ridiculous amount of bad luck for just one person, and I know if I told this to anyone in person they'd think I was just exaggerrating to seem troubled, but I'd love nothing more than to just be ok for even a minute.

Sounds like he will. I'd like to be the first to call this a joke post.

Reply 3

Yoda

Sounds like he will. I'd like to be the first to call this a joke post.

That's really harsh. Surely no-one would joke about that stuff ?

Reply 4

Suis Je Bovvered ?

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Well it's clear you're depressed. Now, from the brief information you've given, i can't really pin-point the root of the problem, however, if your friends are putting you down all the time, they clearly aren't your friends at all. As for the cutting, i suggest you go and see your doctor. He/She'll be able to transfer you into the care of a community mental health nurse. Ok, that sounds scary i know, but really it isn't. The mental health nurses i know are lovely people, and so down to earth, you cantalk to them about anything. Once they've had a few sessions with you, and you feel a bond of trust between the two of you, the mental health nurse will identify what your problems are then recommend various other professionals who can help you.

I hope it gets better for you soon hun *hugs* xxx

Reply 5

OP

It's not a joke, though I wish it were. My father being as ill isn't an emotional worry, it's a financial one. We'd all be even more screwed without the money he brings home.

Reply 6

Anonymous

It's not a joke, though I wish it were. My father being as ill isn't an emotional worry, it's a financial one. We'd all be even more screwed without the money he brings home.

I can understand that, but surely his health is more important than money.

Reply 7

OP

Ha, no.

Reply 8

Anonymous

Ha, no.

Um ok

Reply 9

Suis Je Bovvered ?

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I don't think badly of people who hate their parents to the point they wish they were dead. Each case is different, and unless experienced personally, it's impossible to imagine what life is like for that person. Although i don't wish my parents dead, we seriously don't get along and there is a strong enmity between us. Why do you hate your father so much, if you don't mind me asking?

Reply 10

OP

It's such a long and boring story which I'm in no mood to begin. Hating my father really isn't the issue though, it's just something that means I can't find any real peace and quiet in my home life.

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Anonymous

It's such a long and boring story which I'm in no mood to begin. Hating my father really isn't the issue though, it's just something that means I can't find any real peace and quiet in my home life.

Can't you move out, maybe go live with friends ? Or is that not an option.

Reply 12

Suis Je Bovvered ?

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isabella

Can't you move out, maybe go live with friends ? Or is that not an option.

I agree. Even just to stay with friends for a short while, to clear your head?

Reply 13

OP

It's really not an option, but I'll be going to uni in a few months so I think I can manage until then.

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Yoda

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isabella

Surely no-one would joke about that stuff ?

You'd think so. But you're wrong. Can you not see its obviously a piss take? Read his recent posts; he can barely remember his own story - he keeps contradicting himself so he has to patch up the holes.

Reply 15

Anonymous

It's really not an option, but I'll be going to uni in a few months so I think I can manage until then.

Ok. Well i still think talking to someone will help massively.
I thought Uni starts in september ?

Reply 16

OP

I don't see any contradictions personally.. My father's ill. If he dies we won't have enough money. No, I don't care about his health, I care about the money. I'm going to uni in a few months so there's no point moving out now, especially to stay with friends who I've already established will have good reason not to want me in a few months time. Fair enough if you think it's a joke, I'll admit it does sound extreme, but it's not. Aside from which, if you're so convinced that I'm lying, why are you bothering to keep up with this thread?

Reply 17

OP

September *is* in a few months.

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