No one else will do?

AHHHH Right Im going to explain this to myself as well as you lot so dont worry if I go off on one.


About 3 years ago I met the most amazing girl, the first girl I didnt have to change the way I was and we naturally got along and went out heavy for 6 months, as in the last day was as great as the first, she moved to America and we couldnt carry on with the msn and phone life.
Anyway we recently talked and she said ye we were in love but destiny wasnt on our side..... anyway shes got a boyfriend as far as im aware. Im happy for her, as for me about a dozen girls have come along and I have gone out with them just to try and forget her, some lasted a week some a few weeks, but never a month as after a month I sat down and said to myself, they aint nothing like her or what I want.

I dunno whats wrong with me, Im stuck in the past, Im sure my first love has changed loads, as she says she has, but I cant let go of the one perfect girl after 3 years!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently its gotten tuff, I broke it up with a really good looking girl who all my mates fancied but she asked me out, anyway everyone said stop living in the past and move on, Ive been getting really ****in emotional lately, Im an 18 yr old lad who isnt exactly the girliest of guys just one of the typical lads but I found myself every few nights just breaking down and crying. Cant explain it but the one thing on my mind is her as if Ill ever move on.

I get angry but I guess thats a good thing eh? I mean the only reason I got a muscular body is cos I get really mad at something and take it to the gym or the boxing ring. I sat the other day and saw a couple on the train and got soo jealous. I mean I dont want any girlfriend, I dont want a quick shag, a pretty face to show off, I just want a girl I who I tell anything and who I actually cant wait to be around.

When the **** is it ever gonna happen?!! I guess I should give it time, grit my teeth and stick out this bad patch, I mean its not that bad, I got a wicked car, wicked mates, wicked family, a job and uni starting next year.... Guess I could meet someone there, I dont have problem attracting female attention and suppose there are plently of nice girls a uni,

I dont even know what my type is? I cant explain this girl,

Ahhh well enough, right my mind is clear, any comments on how crazy I am are welcome.....


P.s Do you believe that your one true love comes once in a lifetime, I mean surely not when you're 16!!!!!
The only day I can remember that long ago is my first kiss with her and no it wasnt a teenage crush or my first girlfriend, I had crushes before and several girlfriends before hand, so she was special above the rest.

aaaaaww, thats so sweet, if you really think she's the one, why don't you go to americxa and track her down