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    A bit of background: I'm a 15 year old homeschooled guy. I attend a certain team sports club (not a ball sport or anything). The club is small.

    As a home educated guy, I have always struggled to find a place to fit in and socialise. I have attended various establishments and sports, none of which I was good at. However about 3 years ago I joined the sport club and now I fit in well, I am good at it etc.
    I feel at home there. Outside of studying at home, its the only place I really go to and I feel comfortable and at ease there, somewhere I can be myself amongst those around my own age rather than just my siblings, all of which whom are younger than I.

    Recently my parents encouraged my younger brother, 13, to join this club as well and put him on a trial course of two days. I desperately don't want him there, as I feel embarrassed and like this place I feel comfortable with is no longer "mine".

    Here's the thing: my brother doesn't want to join the sport. My parents are furiously trying to manipulate and persuade him to do so, and I am trying to persuade him to say " no". My parents maintain they will not force him to join but instead desperately keep trying to get him to join, finding various reasons and encouragements.

    My parents' argument is that he cannot be denied the same opportunities as I was when I joined just because I joined the sport first, and that my brother should join a team sport. They are angry with me for not wanting him to join, saying I am "childish", yet they don't know what I feel like.

    Before you agree with them however, let me tell you my reasoning.
    This sport club is the only place I feel happy. It's the only place I can escape from the misery, boredom and arguments of home life. The ONE place I fit in, have people I like and feel comfortable. I don't want my family there at all, I want to be away!
    While it sounds silly, having my brother join would be like bringing home there, and I really don't want that. I can't act like myself with him around nomatter how much I try, everything will be different for me. It literally makes me feel miserable, this is the only place, only activity I have. I want to be separate and do different things - my entire life we have done the same things and I want to be different and my own person!

    I am feeling seriously depressed at the moment and I am panicking, I almost feel sick with worry that the only thing I have is being ripped out from under me and it won't be the same way. I repeat - he doesn't want to join, I don't want him to join - I want to be away from everybody and everything I have at home.
    If you don't understand some of this long winded stuff then I am happy to clarify... Thanks..
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    So explain this to them. They'd understand if you sat down and explained like a reasonable adult - no losing your temper or acting childish, and they'd hopefully listen
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    (Original post by georgiaswift)
    So explain this to them. They'd understand if you sat down and explained like a reasonable adult - no losing your temper or acting childish, and they'd hopefully listen
    Believe me - I have. They claim I am being immature and it's none of my concern, completely ignoring how much it means to me.
    I'm no person to lose my temper, I rarely shout and am very calm. However this is one of the things that matters most to me in my entire life and I quite frankly wouldn't want to live without it the way it is. Sorry but that's how I feel after years of it being the only place I can go to be myself. In my mind, life wouldn't be worth living.

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    Please, I would really appreciate some input

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    Find him a different sports club to join
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    Why can't you 'be yourself' in front of your parents or just anyone not in the sports club?

    Does your brother have a sport that he actually enjoys? If he does, get your parents to get him to join that respective club.

    Let your parents know how important this club is, possibly even slipping in the fact that life could even not be worth living if you couldn't be yourself anymore at the club (even though I'm sure your parents would think that's not true, as do I).
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    (Original post by Alrounder79)
    Why can't you 'be yourself' in front of your parents or just anyone not in the sports club?

    Does your brother have a sport that he actually enjoys? If he does, get your parents to get him to join that respective club.

    Let your parents know how important this club is, possibly even slipping in the fact that life could even not be worth living if you couldn't be yourself anymore at the club (even though I'm sure your parents would think that's not true, as do I).
    I can be myself around non-family, but you don't know how hard it is, what a strain it puts on. I just need some time to escape, have my own thing, without the people I am with ALL DAY traipsing around never leaving me, ALWAYS there.

    He does something, but its not really a sport and its only twice a week. He's homeschooled as well so I understand he needs to do more but why follow me?

    To the last point, they'd laugh at me. They both went to school and have no clue what it's like to grow up like this. I know it sounds dumb and an overreaction but it is the ONLY THING I have. It is the only time I speak to other people my age.

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    (Original post by shawn_o1)
    Find him a different sports club to join
    I have suggested this on several occasions, they seem intent on this one for "convenience". Also apparently it is very difficult to find a sports club that you can join at 13 without any experience as a child.

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    Show them this thread. I doubt you have explained it to them as you have here
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    (Original post by unansweredpost1)

    To the last point, they'd laugh at me. They both went to school and have no clue what it's like to grow up like this. I know it sounds dumb and an overreaction but it is the ONLY THING I have. It is the only time I speak to other people my age.

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    If your parents are at all sane, they would not risk pushing you over the edge. Regardless of how much they think you're bluffing or exaggerating, it wouldn't make sense for them to risk it. I definitely think you should tell them. It's your best bet.
 
 
 
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