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    Not really sure how to convey this without sounding like an idiot, but here goes..
    A few weeks before I got to uni, my first love and I broke up because she cheated whilst drunk (not that it's an excuse) and didn't want to even try to fix it, so it ended (I suppose I'm glad I had that much self respect) and I'm taking it so badly that my confidence is in tatters. It sounds bad, but I derived a lot of happiness from that relationship, as with my depression, I basically feel unwanted on what seems like a daily basis.
    So, since being at uni, I've started going out to clubs, drinking (more to do with having more freedom rather than because of her) and trying to find any sort of way to give me a win that mattered so I wouldn't feel as low as I do writing this.
    But essentially it feels like no matter what I do, I can't.
    I recently found out she's now dating someone else, and it hurts me because she can find someone, even a rebound- if it is that- whilst I can't pull a girl in a club.
    I was at a society's adoptions night last night, playing never have I ever, and as stupid as it sounds, I was very aware that I was totally "inexperienced" compared to basically everyone there (me and her never went all the way, due to not being able to get an opportunity to do so).
    And that in itself feels shallow. Like, I want a ONS, but I can't get one. And the fact that is a problem in itself comes across as stupidly shallow to me, but I'd love to not feel unattractive in the way I have for so long now. When I did try to approach a girl last night, she looked at me with some extreme level of contempt and disgust that just hit me hard.
    It feels like everyone's getting some one way or another and I'm so repulsive that I can't.
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    tl;dr: Think that I'm shallow for feeling unattractive and unable to get any action even after my cheating ex has already found some new guy whilst I'm still hurting. Also feel stupid that I can't get any sexual experience and makes me feel slightly out of place when it comes to the club/social scene. Have zero confidence right now, makes getting any action seem even harder. Most recent attempt made me feel like crap.
    I think that it's idiotic to have these weighing me down and it's stupid and shallow for me to feel this way.
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    You can buy an ONS (through escorts) or you can earn an ONS (through making an effort socially, and being patient). That's all I can offer
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    (Original post by shawn_o1)
    You can buy an ONS (through escorts) or you can earn an ONS (through making an effort socially, and being patient). That's all I can offer
    Not really prepared to go to an escort, it wouldn't really help me much, I don't think, at this point.
    I'm making an effort, but I'm exhausted by all the failings, and I guess it seems so tough right now.
    Do you think I'm being stupidly shallow with this?
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    Not really prepared to go to an escort, it wouldn't really help me much, I don't think, at this point.
    I'm making an effort, but I'm exhausted by all the failings, and I guess it seems so tough right now.
    Do you think I'm being stupidly shallow with this?
    Not if you keep trying
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    (Original post by shawn_o1)
    Not if you keep trying
    I'm not sure you get what I mean.
    I'm under the impression that the lack of sexual experience coupled with getting over her and wanting something meaningless is weighing my mood down. And I feel like that is shallow behaviour.
    Is it shallow to want something as an ego boost?
    Is it shallow that a lack of it makes me feel depressed?
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    If you feel it is "shallow behaviour", stop thinking about it, start thinking about what you're supposed to do. And start doing that.
 
 
 
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