Depression?

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Reply 60

I was diagnosed with depression when i was 16, i was doing my GCSE's at the time and diagnosed myself. To cut a long story short i had lots of ups and downs involving hospitals, psychiatrists, failing exams etc.

I'm 22 now and came off my anti-depressants nearly 2 years ago. It is so hard to look back at how i used to be, because it consumed everything i did, and i think i made some bad choices that i can't reverse now. However it has helped make me who i am now and although i wouldn't go so far as to say i am thankful i had it, i appreciate the fact that i am no longer depressed!

I'm just a miserable cow now, but i can't blame that on depression.

Reply 61

hannah_dru

Consie

Its weird the way you become illogical when you start to get even a tiny bit depressed, like eating when your not hungry.

Yep. Every time I have a bad day, I think "Why don't I just quit A2? There's no point." Then I'm usually fine for a while and I want to carry on. Vicious circle.

Reply 62

badtothebone

do people think that you can ever truely fully get over depression? or that once you have it its an eternal job making sure you dont slip back into it?

I get over it after a while, but somethings just set it back off again.

I find as long as I am keeping myself busy I feel happier(or at least preocupied). when i have nothing to do it makes it worse.

I say to myself, yeah life is **** but might as well smile anyway, its not as if being miserable will get me anywhere. this sometimes helps.

Reply 63

PippaLove

I have been wondering also whether depression is a lifelong illness that varies in severity. Eating disorders, they say, never really leave you, the same with alcoholism.

I had a counciller for sever anxiety. I had a pounding heart and constant arousal state (if you know psychology you'll know what I mean). Basically resulted in me having panic attacks in exams and getting very ill as my body wasted all my energy on being so stressed. This then developed into depression, and after turning up to a councilling meeting in an absoloute state having been tearful for weeks and unable to sleep i was prescribed depressants which also helped with my anxiety. They really have helped, I just hope they arn't a safety blanket which I wont be able to cope without.

My trigger was my fears for the future, which are unavoidable for anyone at our age. Keeping occupied helps so much. I used to feel my lowest in the evenings when there was nothing to do except worry that I had wasted yet another day. I was wondering if anyone else has had similar triggers, or sufferedmore in the evenings? I can't really talk to my friends about this as none have suffered from depression.
Thanks, P

Reply 64

Thud

Why did you bump this and not just start a new thread?

I thought Howard was back :frown:

Reply 65

Smileen

I had depression last year. I went to a doctor and merely changed the pill i was on. Basically i received no "treatement" as i never went back, i have improved but most of the symptoms are the same. Its part of who I am and I'm sure I'll grow out of it, well apparently according to parents LoL.
So I'm still depressed but try and ignore it. I'm not going to babble about my symptoms unless you message me and I'll answer. I'm not gonna bore you all.
It's good just to write this. So thanks x

Reply 66

Rainfaery

I've had severe depression for the last five years, since I was about twelve. I've been on medication for the past three year, which have help to a varying extent.

But yes, I think it is a life-long disease. You never truly get over it.

Reply 67

mysteria

I registered for counselling at Uni a couple of weeks ago and they still haven't gotten back to me. I'm not sure whether I'm 'clinically' depressed, but I don't really remember a time when I could truly say I was happy, and I've only applied for counselling now because I'm afraid if I don't, I'll end up pushing my boyfriend away and that would make everything hurt so much more.
It's just so hard to deal with things sometimes, I really WANT to be happy you know? There's nothing wrong with my life, it's probably enviable if I described it, and it's not like I wallow in self-pity, and I try so hard to preoccupy myself and force negative thoughts away, but nothing seems to work to get me out of this never-ending rut. And the fact that people (like my boyfriend, who claims he was 'severely depressed' therefore 'understands what I'm going through') repeatedly stress it's a mental thing, and you can get over it "if you just try" and "think about how happy things can be", makes it so much worse because I really really wish it was that simple.
Sometimes things get worse because I try and surpress it, because it feels like I'm just being melodramatic and attention-seeking, but then the pain and the tears overflow and I just can't keep it in....

is this normal, I just can't bring myself to talk to anyone about it...

Reply 68

Earl Grey

I was diagnosed with moderate depression about a month ago. I think I've been suffering for at least 2 years. I guess the reason I didnt see a doctor before is because I'd got used to feeling low/tired the whole time. It wasnt anything new for me. Over the last few weeks I've started taking a homeopathic anti-depressant called "Rhodiola Rosea". It seems to be helping, the first few days taking it I felt loads more "awake". The dull ache behind my eyes went and I felt much more "in" situations. My motivation shot up as well, I suddenly wanted to do things I'd lost interest in. A bit of this must be psychological, but I'm still feeling the same today. :smile:

I'm half way through my A2s at the moment. It's definately held me back a lot the the last few years. I dont feel I've ever reached anywhere near my potential. All my assignments and courseworks are done in a panic on the last night. I just cant seem to get motivated to do it any other way. I had a very low patch around christmas time, mixed with indecision about the future, which meant I missed the ucas deadline. Something I'm really annoyed about as I really wanted to go to Uni this year!

Moving on though, I realise I've just gotta make the best of the year out. I'm going to reapply next year to do psychology, the therapists are always the most troubled ones arent they?! It'll be a great oppertunity to earn some money and go travelling before I'm tied down to a course. As well as get over the depression I'm hoping! It's all good, and it'll mean I can appreciate the Uni experience even more when I get there.

For once in my life I'm actually looking forward to the future!

Reply 69

katb123

PippaLove

I used to feel my lowest in the evenings when there was nothing to do except worry that I had wasted yet another day. I was wondering if anyone else has had similar triggers, or sufferedmore in the evenings? I can't really talk to my friends about this as none have suffered from depression.
Thanks, P

I'm going throuh depression atm, and yes, most of my worst times have been at night, just before bed, when I think back to the empty waste of my day and look ahead to the pointless effort of tomorrow. Also, during the day you tend to be alone less, so you have to compose/distract yourself. Bedtime, esspecially when you're in bed trying to sleep, it's just you and your thoughts. Not good for a depressed person, because you just ruminate. Sometimes just the thought of going to bed and trying to sleep can get to me, knowing what it will be like.
Hope that helped a bit. It probably didn't, sorry, lol. xxxxxx just know that you're not the only one going through this, and it's not a sign of weakness, it's a sign of being pushed too far more than anything else, that makes us so mental. :woo: