Ok, so here's the deal. I have a friend, who's 15. I'm 16. He's bi, I'm straight (and female). I really like him, as in like, but I doubt he likes me in that way. We do pretend to hold hands, but it's a joke. Trouble is, I wish he would go further. Much further. He sees me as just a friend , I assume, since he acts like that around most people.
There's more. Last year, he pretended to start bum-raping me, my sister and a group of friends, thinking we all thought it was a joke, which at first we did. But in the end it got annoying so we reported it and it went to the police. (When I say that, I mean the school policeman got involved.) It all stopped after that, and he was careful about talking about sexually-related stuff.
Even after all that, I still find myself falling for im. He talks openly about sexual stuff, but i's all in a jokey way.
What do I do? Let him know who I feel? Leave it? Please help !