I tried to post this once but I don’t think it posted properly
Ok, I’ve done something quite bad and just need to get it out and any advice would be helpful. My boyfriend and I have been together for just over 12 months now. I love him so much and couldn’t ask for anything more. He’s been on holiday for almost a month and won’t be back until next Saturday. But last night I went to a party at a friend’s house and whilst there I got chatting to a boy I know, just as friends.
Later on when everyone was going to sleep we ended up in the same bed. I didn’t mind sharing with him because we’re friends and I love my boyfriend so much, that I didn’t think anything of crashing out next to him and loads of people were sharing beds and sofa’s anyway. We just lay there chatting for ages, but then he turned to me so we were facing each other and said how great a person he thought I was and tried to kiss me, I was quite drunk by this point, but still I knew it was wrong and turned my head away saying that I couldn’t get with him and I loved my boyfriend. He tried to kiss me again several times and each time I said I couldn’t turning my head away but in the end I gave in. I felt so guilty thinking about my boyfriend and quickly pulled away from him. In some ways I wanted the affection that I haven’t had because my boyfriends been away, but this is still no excuse and I now feel so guilty and don’t know what to do.
To some people they would say it’s only a kiss, but in the 12 months I’ve been with my boyfriend, I’ve never so much as looked at another guy and I no I have to tell him, I just don’t know what to say?? and I will also have to wait until next week until he comes back. I truly feel disgusted at my actions; I can only hope he will forgive me.
Sorry for the long post