I'm going to New York the week after next with a school group (not many pupils). I've been wanting to go since I wa a little girl an I am very excited. Hopefully the weather won't cancel any flights. However, I am going with two of my friends and we are the oldest going. These two friends are, I feel, closer to each other than me. When I am alone with just one they are nice to me but when the other comes along they immediately go into their own zone. Now I admit I am a bit jealous because one of these people I had an amazing friendship with but now I just feel sidelined. I have asked them about it, and one said they promise not too but the other said something along the lines of "I know I'm an ******* I can't help it" which is NOT an excuse but a little 'fight' later I dropped the conversation as it wasn't worth it. I had more confidence in my other friend however today at lunch I was completely ignored and left out and I felt hurt and alone even just at school. If it's like that even in school, what will it be like in a foreign country? Even at my birthday party they left me alone. I have such a good history with one and a rocky one with the other it's inpossible to just leave them. Plus I sit next to the one I'm closest too in most classes (the other friend has no classes with us).
I just don't know what I'll do of I'm ditched here!