It still kills me that you would never tell me anything. You think I didn't care, or were you just testing my devotion. I suspected that deep down and thats why I behaved badly and got frustrated. Please will you tell me anything at all, I am so sorry. I can't lie I've seen pictures online and I am an idiot, and you are so beautiful, I think you are gorgeous, and your voice too. I know I would never have been bored and life would have been so stimulating with you. I just really want to interact or exchange words with you, I still have this need to resolve it, I can't really function right without communicating about it with you. Please don't shut me out from knowing or speaking to you on here at all. J to N