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    (Original post by fatima1998)
    oh lel my friend loves calpol :giggle: she can drink the bottle
    i might just leave it tbh :yy: i'll be fine
    The whole bottle? :eek: That isn't good!
    Though I must admit I pretended to be ill when younger because I loved strawberry calpol so much...

    You brave soldier
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    (Original post by RobML)
    The whole bottle? :eek: That isn't good!
    Though I must admit I pretended to be ill when younger because I loved strawberry calpol so much...

    You brave soldier
    lel but she did it though :rofl:
    lel seee everyone loves it, its just me who hates the taste for every medicine
    my bravery is gone now :lol: but i'll try to be alive
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    (Original post by fatima1998)
    lel but she did it though :rofl:
    lel seee everyone loves it, its just me who hates the taste for every medicine
    my bravery is gone now :lol: but i'll try to be alive
    I hope it wasn't calpol 6+. That's the hardcore stuff.
    But it's so nice!
    Yeah Fat please don't die :lol:
    • #4
    #4

    Dear you

    Ugh why am I so confused all the time? I hate that so many people in my life have the power to make my heart drop at so many opportunities right now. I am constantly lonely and crave someone to be there so badly. I feel like everyone has someone in their life be it a partner or even just a best friend yet I have no one like that. I want someone to care about me, to text me, to ask me to hang out, to actually want me in their life but they don't, no one does.

    To person #1: I thought I was meant to be your best friend, but you don't care. You never text to see how I'm doing, it's always about you. I know you've had a tough life, but I've not had it all that easy either. I get so jealous and my heart drops when I see you about with your other friends because I know that deep down if you never spoke to me again you couldn't care less. You wouldn't text me if I didn't text first. I should have known a few months back and stayed out of your life, well from now on its down to you to make the effort and I bet I won't hear from you again. I just wish it wasn't going like this because I really thought we understood eachother.

    To person #2: I am so confused about what I feel about you. I am still confused and hurt by what went down. Even though I am trying to get over you, it makes my sick to my stomach thinking about you getting with someone else. I just wish I knew your reasons for ending it like you did. I feel like I'm waiting for everything between us to begin again even though deep down I know it has to be over. It would never have worked anyway. I just wanted so badly to have someone to love me and I guess I had pinned my hopes on you.

    I guess I'll find someone one day that will make me feel wanted.

    Love me
    • #119
    #119

    Dear you,

    Today I decided to let go. Let go after what seems like an age of loving you, trying to make you feel special and being beside you. Today is going to be hard, and all the todays after that will be hard. Saying goodbye is never easy. You were the love of my life. You were mine, and now you aren't. You stated how you felt, and I accepted.

    Saying goodbye is never easy.

    Me.
    • #60
    #60

    Dear You,

    It's been a long time since I last spoke to you and I don't know what happened between us that we suddenly stopped speaking to each other, but I still like you so much! :cry2:

    I wish I had the courage to add you on social media and message you on there to find out how you are, but I don't

    Love,
    An almost heartbroken me
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    #76

    Hurt
    • #120
    #120

    Dear You

    I don't know what to do about you. Having thought about things, I know how messed up I am and how I should be doing things differently. But you're special, I'll give you that much. One of a kind, even though I don't know you that well. Maybe this is just who I am, and that some things will never change. And Nisha is ridiculously pretty, but then again I am not surprised. Then I think about myself and.. meh. It's a good thing that you can't damage something that isn't there. Maybe that is why I don't put myself out there, but then.. why give up now? Don't do something that you'll regret.

    Good luck.
    • #121
    #121

    Dear you,

    I hear you are happy now. I'm glad. I do miss you sometimes though.
    • #29
    #29

    Dear you,

    Stop assuming ****. I liked you six months ago, half a goddamn year has gone by and you magically pop back into my life and expect me to still feel the same way? That I wouldn't have met anyone else or moved on? Then you tell me that we can only date for the summer and then we go our separate ways and not see each other again? How about NO. How about, I'm worth more than that. How about I've met someone so much better for me and I don't need your desperate attempts at getting laid. Oh and STOP talking to people at work about me/us. There is no "us". I haven't agreed to date you, we aren't in a relationship and NO I won't sleep with you.

    From, me
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    Dear You;

    Please get help. You can't keep doing this to yourself. I care for you.
    • #98
    #98

    Dear you,

    It was only a single message a day to get your attention and see how you're doing.

    Didn't mean you have to (apparently) block me. I don't take fondly to people who don't respond to me when I ask them how they are. I know you might have been busy, but it's not like I bombarded you with messages. Even when I was slightly annoyed with the lack of response.

    Guess I'll have to find someone else to talk to considering you were like 1 of just a couple of people I talked to and I pretty much needed some socialising to keep me going in life.

    Part of me hopes you'll message me again. But if you don't, then it was good knowing you for the short time we spoke. I'll have to go back to hoping that the one other person I talk to doesn't end up leaving me all alone.

    :sigh:
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    Dear you,
    I don't know how I feel about you texting me out of the blue again. You know, when I first met you I thought you were nice but knew we wouldn't be close friends because you were too reliant on me and it was pretty annoying. But you were nice, so I was nice back.
    What really made me distance myself from you was the fact that even after I let you work with us (because you had no other friends in that class; the other person I was working with didn't even like you) you went behind our backs and spoilt our chances too. You had your visit sorted and let us think otherwise, you used us and did nothing for the group.
    After that I stopped bothering with you. I still answered questions etc if you asked, I just didn't bother introducing you to my friends or hanging out with or texting you. I never told anyone anything about what you did either because I didnt want them to think bad of you, I was just done with you myself.
    Don't bother coming up to me and sitting next to me in lectures next year, I hope we don't have any modules together apart from that one compulsory one.
    Me

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    • #7
    #7

    Dear you,
    Tonight I felt very nostalgic and ended up thinking a great deal about my experience with you, how it developed, and how it ended. I just wanted to write down some thoughts for self expression and peace of mind.

    I've come very far since last year. It really helps that I don't have to see you any where or be exposed to you on any online platform. I know that if I was to see you again it would bring everything back and I would struggle, but I don't think that will happen. I don't feel love towards you any more, more just..dissapointment. Dissapointment at the fact that you was okay with, and thought it was okay, to betray me and walk away in the way that you did. You really led me on, despite knowing all of the issues that would effect me being involved with you and would jeopardise my happiness. Despite knowing how much of a decent person I was, you was okay with visiting me in your smart wear, convincingly expressing to me that I had nothing to worry about and that the things you may have said in the past were a product of your depression. I don't feel bitterness or resentment any more, which is a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I honestly just feel sorry for you. Because you're simply a product of a number of experiences. You're involved with some one who is a negative influence on you. And I know through reflection that she is, because I remember how the tone of your emails would change when she was trying to contact you. You were in absolute dread of the prospect of her being close to you again, and that's because you know full well that you would be better off without her in your life. But you're just very troubled. Easily tempted to return to something unhealthy simply because there's nothing else keeping you going in life, and you're clearly too in love with yourself and your needs to care about the way you hurt others, and the way that your actions have consequences for those around you and who bother to give you the time of day. I knew from the way you used to reassure me and the way that you seemed to be blossoming when she wasn't involved that there really is something special about you. But unfortunately all of that has disappeared like a speck of dust, just like the way you was prepared to walk out of my life. Your decisions are very odd, and you both are quite..odd people. But you're so deep in this pit of purposelessness, low self esteem and belief that you're unworthy, so much so that you're not willing to lift your head up and acknowledge how different your life could be if you would just pull yourself together and be decent.
    I've learnt that you know how to portray yourself in a good way. You know how to present yourself well. Unfortunately at the time I interpreted that as sincerity. As full blown love and passion.

    The nature of our relationship changed once I moved closer to you. Beforehand it was magical. The way we would exchange emails, the way I would feel this sense of utter excitement when I knew you was coming to visit me. But when I moved closer to you, there was less emphasis on written communication. You became lazy and laid back, the passion wasn't there. I became a companion, someone to lean on out of boredom. You're not a dedicated person, and I wish I would have known that.

    I started seeing some one recently and he, just like you, left me very quickly. It makes me curious about how people can do that. Just shift from passion and utter infatuation to just emptiness. Being okay with just cutting the other off without a backwards glance. It's very strange- it's not something I could do so easily. I try not to let it ruin my faith in humanity because I know you, god forbid, are unique (in a very bad way) and my experience with you certainly isn't typical of the average relationship. It is quite demoralising, though. When one is already so cripplingly lonely, and then when someone does come along, it barely turns in to anything before that gaping hole returns, and I look up to see that the person has gone. But I just have to keep going, keep hoping that things will turn out okay in the end.

    I don't think I'll go in to detail about the way you left and the way you created so much heartbreak and pain for me- what's the point in upsetting myself tonight? But yeah, it's good to express myself and get some things off my chest.
    It's good to reflect.

    But I do sit and wonder..who will I end up with. Is he out there, and will he find me? Will I be loved unconditionally one day by any one other than my family?
    I hope to meet you soon, and I'll look forward to committing to you and giving you everything you deserve
    • #122
    #122

    Dear You,

    I love you more than I have ever loved anything in my life. I try to play it off like I don't, but we both know the truth and that you don't feel the same way. But you act like you care for me deeply. Maybe my feelings are reciprocated, but you don't allow yourself to express them because it would be a social taboo for either of us to act upon them. I have never feel so close to another person, so understood, so loved for who I truly am. All my other relationships are tainted by lies and the desperation to be liked and the belief that I am fundamentally not good enough. Some days I think my heart might burst with love and care. I hate that I feel this way. I hate that I think about you all the time. I wish I didn't. I know it's too intense for you.

    I want to hate you. Some days I try to convince myself that I hate you, some days I truly believe that I loathe you with all my being. But the truth is that one look at you melts away all of my anger. I feel so much warmth towards you, I couldn't possibly contain it. I'm never like this. It's weird, I know it's weird. I'm sorry. I feel so indifferent about everyone else. Even my family I'm not close to.

    We play the silence game for the upteenth time. For the upteenth time I'm convinced that this time, this time I'll win, because I hate you and I couldn't give less of a **** about you. And then for the upteenth time, I crack first. It hasn't even been long enough to imply I could live if you didn't speak to me. I'll win next time. I won't speak to you for a month and then you'll worry and message me. Won't you?

    I just want to talk to you everyday, to see you everyday. I'm kidding myself. I'm not good enough for you. Do you even like me? I'm not convinced. Would it kill you to show a little warmth back to me? You've done so much for me and I feel like I owe you everything, but it feels like you even reject my care for you. I'm so conflicted. I don't want anyone to ever make me feel like this again. I want to blame you, but I know it's me. I'm broken.

    I'm sorry.

    I don't know what to do. I don't know how I'm supposed to handle this. I'm sorry for how I feel. I'm sorry for being too intense. I don't know what to say to you anymore. I can't even escape from you. I can imagine how you'd respond to everything. I think, maybe, I've even become a little bit like you over this past year. It's hard to explain. I want to say it's like you're part of me, but it's not that. The part is distinctly me, but it's you too. It's too optimistic to be wholly me. It's by far the best part of myself, the kindest, warmest, most compassionate part. I guess I should thank you for it, but I'm not sure you even care. I wish I could talk to you about this, but you'd just ignore it, and what good would it do anyway?

    I'm sorry. I wish my feelings would just disappear.
    • #62
    #62

    Sam why are you doing this. Give it a rest. I know. I get it. Enough is enough.
    • #120
    #120

    Things seem to be going well and then one thing disturbs the balance. You feel a bit crap now but it's okay, this is all part of the learning curve as he said. You just have to make it up in the future. It can feel like everything is just going wrong sometimes, but it'll get better if you put in as much as you can.
    • #116
    #116

    Dear you
    Stop being an A-hole!!!

    Love, me
    • #2
    #2

    Dear you,

    Your dad dropped me off the other day, I dont think I cross yr mind anymore,
    and tbh I thought I was way past the point of being over you, but when I saw you, that feeling came back and it's being 7 years and I've never felt that feeling before or after. It's really weird and beautiful and I miss that feeling, the feeling like the summer and blossoms flying through the winds like when we used to go out in our summer days ffs, I've met a lot of guys but I know that I'm waiting for you, I just wish you knew too.......


    love,
    me
    • #2
    #2

    Dear you,

    what you said to me was actually shocking and sweet but I'm so confused, sometimes i think you're playing and sometimes i think you're being genuine...
    you seem like a straight forward kinda guy but I cant stop thinking that maybe there's another side to you.
    why would you say those things to me when in front of others you seem to like someone else.....
    i dunno what to think of you, you're either really nice or a real evil person playing an vile game, i'm sorry but i think ill rather play safe and not go far with you although i dont really want to judge you yet.......

    i guess only time will tell

    love,
    me
 
 
 
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