Hi guys, this is a random account i made so people dont know who i am and I'll be hiding a few things too like subjects
Basically, to go back right to the start of it. Since the start of year 7 my life has completely been controlled and directed by my family, mainly one person but lets call him person X. Ever since year 7 began I've had no choice about what I could do and I was just forced to study every day no matter how I felt, it's been a pain in the ass to put up with this and it still continues even though I'm now im year 12.
However... to get to the point, when it came to GCSEs he picked all of my options without any consideration of what I would've wanted to do. It f*cking sucked and I hated the next 2 years from there onwards because of subjects Z and Y. Luckily, I managed to scrape decent grades of averaging 14 As with 10 of those being A*s-As, which was pretty much like legendary at my school lol.. only like 6ish people get grades like that each year.
But, this is where it gets a lot worse. When it came to thinking about sixth form I was considering applying to a really good sixth form college reasonably close to me ( St .....) where some of my smart friends also applied to. I tried to talk to X about it and he instantly just brushed it off like it was nothing, he just said 'you'd prefer it at the same school because all of your friends are there', personally, I would have wanted to go regardless if my friends went or stayed. I would've still talked to them anyway.
Even worse, he chose my four options for me which was a ****ing nightmare, only 1 of which I wanted to do. When it came to A-Levels for both my brothers they were allowed to choose subjects they wanted, one was forced to do economics though. But, with me, the only option I would've wanted to do was maths, my other subject is further maths which is quite nice at AS (not taking to A2). My other 2 subjects are Econ & computing
Despite trying to moan about it it basically did nothing and I was forced to these subjects. And I'm now at the stage where I've had enough and I've burnt out, I seriously cant continue this anymore and I hate my life atm, it's so depressing to drag yourself into stuff you hate doing and have no intention of even thinking about after A Levels. I just feel like failing for the sake of not having to continue doing economics and computing, I have no passion whatsoever and I hate them so much, teachers are bad, school is sh*t, I just feel like doing nothing in lessons and it just makes me want to just stop going to school as a whole.
When I wanted to apply to St ... I originally wanted to do Eng Lit, Classics, Maths and Further Maths. I never mentioned the subjects to him but they are truly what I'm interested in and what I really enjoy (a little history and mainly english lit <3) with even more english lit! But now that it's February and its a month past the sixth form application deadline for the college, I don't know what to do after AS or what I should at least try and do. Can anyone suggest anything? I'm truly lost. But after AS I'm pretty sure I'll have As in maths and further maths. Any help I would MASSIVELY appreciate. Education was originally something I enjoyed until my life was taken over and I had a path to follow forced upon me
p.s I apologize for any mistakes w/ grammar, had to make this in a rush
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- 11-02-2016 19:08
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- 13-02-2016 20:20
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