How to be me.

This sounds weird. I need to know how to stop being such an idiot, and act more myself.

I have mannnnnyyy problems (well, it feels like to me) but they are all somewhat connected, and if I try and solve one, another will follow and so on.

Everytime, I join a new crowd of people, whether it be a new job, college, placement, I always get tagged as the "loud, brash, bubbly" one. I can't help myself. Everytime, I tell myself to be cool, not to end up always being the centre of attention. It just doesn't work.

I know I have body issues, and I overcompensate with a huge personality, but it's getting to the point where people see me as quite agressive. i say what I think, and to ensure I don;'t get bullied, I swear quite a lot, and shout down people who are known for being nasty or bitchy.

This isn't really me. I am quite talkative, I think, but I am really quite easygoing!

How can I tone down myself at college, not too noticeably ( I tried not shouting and swearing all the time and people tohugh something was wrong!) because it's really getting me down. I don't want to be the class clown anymore.

Please help.

I am sorry if this is all muddled and strange.