I'm here because I really need some advice on what I should do, I feel totally and utterly stuck in my life and have no way of getting out.
Basically, growing up, I was always in a good place. Our home was a very happy one, all of my family really get on with each other and any arguments were petty.
Anyway, about six months ago, my girlfriend of 7 years asked me to move in with her at her parents' house. Reluctantly, I agreed. I was more than happy living at home but I guess I knew that at my age I'd have to move out eventually. I say I agreed relunctantly because I know what their house was like. Family rows, bad tempers and horrible living atmosphere doesn't even come close.
Every day I dread the thought of leaving work, simply because of what may await at the house. More often than not, they're arguing and shouting like hell at each other and if I'm honest it's a family that I really feel needs some help. My point is, I really hate having to live this way and every day I dream of just packing up and going back home. I get really down about it because I'm just not happy living here at all.
My relationship with my girlfriend is rocky also. She's cheated on me about four times (I know, what am I even still doing with her). I really feel like the best thing for me is to move on and start a new chapter in my life, but I'm finding it so difficult explaining to her that I want to go home and probably end the relationship.
I'm determined that if she cheats again I'd be on my way, but I feel as if I'm sitting waiting for something to go wrong so that I have a reason to end it to prevent the whole guilty feeling thing.
But we haven't even met!