We've been together for 18 months and I'm still uncomfortable with him looking at my body, and I really don't like sex, not because he's bad at it or anything, but I always feel as if I'm not good enough. If I tell him to stop, he does, but he's always in a mood afterwards and tells me that he doesn't care that I stopped it. The fact that he doesn't care really bothers me because he doesn't care enough to realise how withdrawn I've become. We literally never have sex without me crying afterwards because he makes me feel like a piece of meat when he pulls his face.
My boyfriend refuses to understand that I am suffering with depression and keeps referring to me as lazy or moody, which obviously isn't going to help me what so ever. I also suffer with anxiety so I'd never be able to physically tell anyone this, and because I can't talk about my issues the hospital no longer help me tackle these illnesses.
I know for a fact that people will think the best thing for me to do is leave him, but I do love him, and truth be told he's the only friend I have.
Need to get things off my chest Watch
- Thread Starter
- 11-03-2016 18:14
- 11-03-2016 18:18
I thought you wanted help with getting things on to your chest?
- 11-03-2016 18:25
As much as it may seem tricky, please get some professional help for your depression, speak to your gp, a counsellor or been a member of your family about what you're going through, you have a right to a happy life but you need the right people to help you get there. It doesn't sound like your relationship is helping you in anyway, especially with your boyfriend's attitude to mental illness, you need to surround yourself with love and support and it doesn't sound like you're getting that from him. You can meet new people going through it who have gone through similar things and you'll definitely be able to make new friends, it sounds like you'd rather be in an unhappy relationship than alone but I promise you can be around good people without him.