Personally since around 20 I never had a problem in nightclubs and going with girls for casual flings.
But my actual love life (relationships/emotional side) has been an absolute trainwreck. I have never actually been in a relationship before. I have developed feelings for girls I have slept with but they did not like me that way, or I blew my chance.
What happens is that I tend to pull girls on nights out, but I am not really interested in them because I don't really know them as people.
The girls I have wanted since 16 for a relationship... without fail, every single time they go with someone else I know. I look at the guys and they're not better than me... but they do seem like they had the right luck or the set of circumstances. I cannot really explain it.
It has gotten to the point now where ALL of my friends have long term partners and I am focusing on money making because that is all I have. It's the only thing stopping me from going into deep depression (I've been there before, for a span of months and it is god awful).
I basically make my money, I go on holiday, then I get really uninhibited and act like a ****. Behind that, I actually feel very ****ing blank, like empty and pointless.
Is anyone in a similar sort of boat?