Helloo, just gunna get straight into it cause I can't think of any other way of starting this.
Just got out of a 2yr relationship with my first love & I'm still sort of dealing with it. There no more me & him & I fully understand that. We had a great 2yrs and I'll remember them fondly but obviously I'm still hurting from the heart break.
Atm I'm just doing what I want, flirting & sleeping around cause I've never had the chance to do it before & I'm enjoying it.
I'm in my second year & living with my mates. My best friend 'Alan' (fake name) is awesome. We get along so well and i love spending time with him, we're practically in each others pockets. I knew I fancied him when I was with my ex & obviously tried to stay away from it but I ended up cheating when I was incredibly drunk on my birthday & regretted it wholeheartedly. At the same time it wasn't like I had done it with anyone willy nilly, I knew there was something there.
We have a connection no doubt & we know how much we care about each other, there's just no getting past it. I recently started noticing how much I wanted to be with him, kiss him & how sad & lost I am when he's not here.
My dilemma is no matter how much I like him I'm worried if it's too soon after my break up it could ruin our awesome friendship & that is ultimately the last thing I want to do. He's such a sweet & gentle guy, I couldn't handle hurting him.
If anyone has any advice or something similar they've been through, any help would be nice.
Thought he was 19... really he's 14