Some of you will have read my previous posts and some won't, but the short story is that, after two amazing, difficult, confusing and exhilarating years, my boyfriend and I have split up. We've split twice before and always ended up getting back together a couple of months down the line because we miss each other so much and both still love each other. But when we do get back together, the old problems eventually resurface. We've tried and tried but, for various reasons, we've arrived at the painful realisation that no matter how much we love each other, our relationship doesn't work any more.
This time, the break has to be for good. I adore him more than I know how to handle, but the relationship has no future and I cannot bear the agony of going through the cycle of getting back together only to break up again and for it to hurt all the more. In the past, after splitting we've kept in contact as friends and ended up back in each other's arms because we just miss each other so much. So, on Friday, crying on each other's shoulders, we decided to cut contact this time to try and help us both get over it. All I've been able to think about for the last 48 hours is how much I want to text him or hear his voice, but I know I can't and of course it hurts like hell.
Is cutting contact the right thing to do? What else can I do to help myself get over him - for good this time? Everyone says that time is a great healer, but in the past, when we split up for a couple of months I actually missed him more with every day that passed, and I just can't do that this time, I need to get over him otherwise I'm going to lose my mind. I'm trying spending time with friends, keeping busy with work, and all the rest, but is there anything else I can do? Anything that's worked for anyone else? I would have spent the rest of my life with this man and I don't know how I'm ever going to get over him. He was such an important part of my life and every song I hear, every place I go, everything I say or do, just reminds me of him and I can't bear not sharing my life with him any more. I feel sick every morning when I wake up and remember that I'm not with him any more. My head knows it's for the best, but how can I help my heart get there too?
I've collected all my stuff from his flat, locked all momentos of him away in a box, and I have to get over him now, but please, someone help me figure out how to do it?