Now I've had bad days, bad weeks, bad months and bad years. I try to move on, and learn from them, like all good people should. I believe in karma, its fair isnt it?
Now today, has taken the mick, lets look at what I've realised today
1. I have just left school and six form, ive been there 7years, so many people Ive met and gotten to know, and there are some poeple who if I think about leaving just makes me feel totally sick all these people I will never see again
2. I have no idea what im doing in the future, i have yet to pick a uni and a course, on top of that im **** scared of uni
3. I have just realised, that in the freaking state I am, i have no-one to talk to
4. Why today, does all the music/tv shows that trigger the worst of me come on?
5. Im going to have a 3month holiday, which means ill be sitting at home doing nothing, now i know the usual, get a job blah blah, yes I am going to hand out cv's and such
I once had a summer wher i basically was at home, it was so, so bad. I felt so suicidial and such a loser, i am NOT looking forward to this
6. I feel sick, i feel depressed, i feel like crap, i feel confused all wrapped into one, i dont what to do where to go what to even think.
7. oh god theres someone, who i just freakin started talkin to, and guess what? YUP IM FREAKIN GOIN UNI, nice one, just freaking nice, for frick sake
why am I posting this? I dont kno, i need to vent, so wht the hell,