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Ughh there is something very wrong with me, i feel very depressed, consider suicide constantly, have massive mood swings...this morning i felt ok and calm and then got nervous and had bad butterflies and then had a massive go at my friend on msn for no reason and whilst was shouting at her was shaking and crying and then felt awful after and now feel calm again... i feel hopeless and worthless and stupid and insecure and always think my best friend is going to leave me for someone else and when she goes out with someone else has a better time than with me and therefore going to abandon me.. right now i just feel numb... god i dunno why i'm saying all this but i can't continue...

Reply 1

username47781

20

Are you seeing anyone for this?, you might want to see your GP about what you are going through.

Reply 2

emancipazione

You need to talk to a professional about this. Go to your GP and tell him/her how you've been feeling or talk to a teacher/adult you can trust and can refer you to someone.

If it helps, places like Streetwise hold free, confidential counseling sessions without keeping any records of what has been said.

I know it can feel impossible to talk to a stranger about things like this face-to-face, but a lot of people actually find it better to talk to a stranger than someone they have an emotional connection with in the end.

If you can, it might be a good idea to just explain to your friend how you've been feeling lately. It needn't go into detail, just something along the lines of a note or offline message saying "I'm sorry I've been a little bit up and down lately, I'm not feeling too great at the moment. I just want you to know that I love you and care about you, and I'm sorry." (or whatever you want, just an example).

Whatever you do though, you need to talk to a professional about this. You can do =) I've been in your situation before and know it takes a lot of strength even to type an anonymous message on a message board: remember that you do have strength and you can use that strength to get the help you deserve (even if it feels totally impossible right now!)

Peace. x

Reply 3

generalebriety

16

You sound pretty much like I did, two years ago. Clinical depression was my doctor's verdict.

Reply 4

NickNack

1

i felt like that once nd i never talked to anyone about it - for the love of god dont do the same! if you feel like this all the time, go to the doctor or something. There must be something causing you to feel this way, whether in your life or physically, but dont fight alone.

but yeh, make peace with your friends, itll help.

Reply 5

Custer

1

Anonymous

........always think my best friend is going to leave me for someone else and when she goes out with someone else has a better time than with me and therefore going to abandon me..

Please tell me your not older than 12.

Reply 6

Shockley

15

kastro9

Please tell me your not older than 12.

Please tell me you are not seriously considering becoming a doctor.....

Anyway, to the OP, I know how you feel and I have had to overcome it through my own strength and the support of the people around me. I was depressed for months, started seeing a counsellor and went on antidepressants. Everything made me unhappy because I felt like a failure, my life was crap, I hated living in Aberdeen and I had no-one to talk to. Two weeks into the medication,I was feeling calm and happy until one night I threw a massive fit in a hotel room and threatened to kill myself (something which I had never, ever thought about in my life). I woke up the next morning with cuts and bruises all over my face and body. I was ashamed to talk to anyone, I panicked about being a failure and having a crap life. It was the scariest thing I had experienced but I knew I was the only person to get myself out of it.

I felt bad for days and was paranoid he would leave me, but then one day while crying to myself I thought, "come on, think about this. There are two ways this can go. I can leave this hotel room and never see or speak to my boyfriend again, I will always feel lonely and sorry for myself. Or, I can pull myself together, fight for what I want out of life and not let anything get to me." So I went for option two. Since then I've been happier, calmer, more focused and confident. I can sort all my problems without tablets, I can enjoy life and bloody well go for it. You are only a failure if you give up, you have to go on and fight for things. You will feel better. You will succeed, I know you can because I was you only a few weeks ago. And yes, life still gets me down and things make me unhappy. Life's ****. But there are ways around things.

Reply 7

miktumiktu

based on what i learned in psychology, you might have mild depression and paranoid schizophrenia.
but don't get bogged down by those big terms mate,
all you need to do, is find something distracting, like go to the park, see the sight or look at the stars at night, by yourselves of course.
you should feel better b/c you will soon see the beauty of the world

Reply 8

Custer

1

Shockley

Please tell me you are not seriously considering becoming a doctor.....

Yes, I apologise, this person was asking for help and I posted thoughtlessly.

Ok, here is my good answer:

It is very clear to me that this person’s problems all stem from one source, and that is from an inferiority complex, now this is what is leading to everything else. You feel that you are inferior to others, this is creating lots of anxiety for you, this leads to you feeling sad/depressed and the suicidal thoughts all come from this great feeling of worthlessness.

Your levels of anxiety seem to be really high and the reason you get sprouts of relative calmness and then sudden depression is physiological since you are producing lots of the stress hormones (adrenaline/noradrenalin) and you are exhausting your body. I know this because you have reported the butterflies feeling, which is a direct result of digestion being inhibited due to the body’s preparation for the stress response. Not only that but you are also really weakening your immune system, this increases your chance of catching illnesses!

Now, you were not born like this, so something must have happened in your life to cause you to feel like this. You have physiological and psychological stress, irrational thinking, suicidal feelings and these are all really serious. If you leave it, they will just get worse and worse! Please seek professional counselling urgently, this will really help you face your problems and allow you to be able to lead a productive life and move on.

Visit your GP, he will point you in the right direction.

again, sorry for the crudeness of my first comment.

Regards

Reply 9

ßlαcksωαn

17

Sounds like a cry for help. I've been there and and still get like that.
Thing is you NEED to talk to your uni/school counsellor or anyone. Dont keep it inside any more or it will eat you up and thing'll get a whole lot worse! pm me if you need someone to talk to.

Reply 10

daggy

Yep I agree with the inferiority complex bit.

You need to stop obsessing about your best friends actions. You even believing that your 'best' friend could just get up and leave you is juxtaposed to the whole idea of friendship. She/He's your best friend, even if they wanted to, the chances are they couldn't just stop being your friend.
However, if you don't sort this out, they may have no choice to cut links with you, could you imagine being your friend now? <<< That should be the thing that drives you to get help, if you love your best friend, you'll do anything to sort things out, but you need to do this for yourself too.

Don't know whether you have or haven't, but if you haven't apologised to your mate yet (for the msn thing), I suggest you do it as soon as possible.

Anyway, nobody is going to do it for you, so you need to go and see a Dr. straightaway.
Good luck, Anth!!

Reply 11

Anonymous #1

OP

Thanks for all your help.. i'm just worried going to see a gp or counsellor will be weird because they'll judge me for being so insecure and stupid. I feel so calm this morning but still have the worried butterflyish feeling that i'm going to become depressed later today and am worrying about the best friend situation endlessly.

Reply 12

Schmokie Dragon

17

Anonymous

Ughh there is something very wrong with me, i feel very depressed, consider suicide constantly, have massive mood swings...this morning i felt ok and calm and then got nervous and had bad butterflies and then had a massive go at my friend on msn for no reason and whilst was shouting at her was shaking and crying and then felt awful after and now feel calm again... i feel hopeless and worthless and stupid and insecure and always think my best friend is going to leave me for someone else and when she goes out with someone else has a better time than with me and therefore going to abandon me.. right now i just feel numb... god i dunno why i'm saying all this but i can't continue...

Been there. See a GP. And if they tell you to go away, keep going back. This isn't healthy (as you know) and I really doubt you are going to deal with it on your own. Do not worry about being seen as a waste of time by the doctor, or about being patronised. Tell them honestly how you feel, and that you have been contemplating suicide.

EDIT - GPs are trained to deal with this kind of thing. It is just the same as a medical condition, as it is your brain which is playing up. And the whole purpose of a counselor is to help people with emotional issues!

Reply 13

Anonymous #1

OP

Do I have to go the doctor and ask to see a counsellor.. how does the system work? I need to see someone asap before this gets too much.

Reply 14

Schmokie Dragon

17

Book an appointment, turn up, tell them the problem and they will take it from there. Because a lot of people are not really depressed, and still want to go on meds etc, they can be funny about patients suggesting treatments. So don't walk in and say "I need a counselor". Just tell them what is wrong and they can recommend a treatment.

Reply 15

sauce

13

Anonymous

Do I have to go the doctor and ask to see a counsellor.. how does the system work? I need to see someone asap before this gets too much.

Hey I was feeling similar to you and kept putting off seeing a doctor in a hope it would go away/ I'd feel better. Regret it a lot, because I let it go a bit too far off the rails and it's harder to get back on track.
See a doctor. Just plainly explain how you've been feeling. It's hard and it'll sound wierd hearing it yourself but the doctor will totally understand honestly
:hugs:

x 100000000000000000000

Reply 16

Ywiss

15

icecoldstar

based on what i learned in psychology, you might have mild depression and paranoid schizophrenia.

Ridiculous to make a diagnosis like that when you don't know a quarter of what the OP is like.

Reply 17

AverageGuyOnTheStreet

9

kastro9

Yes, I apologise, this person was asking for help and I posted thoughtlessly.

Ok, here is my good answer:

It is very clear to me that this person’s problems all stem from one source, and that is from an inferiority complex, now this is what is leading to everything else. You feel that you are inferior to others, this is creating lots of anxiety for you, this leads to you feeling sad/depressed and the suicidal thoughts all come from this great feeling of worthlessness.

Your levels of anxiety seem to be really high and the reason you get sprouts of relative calmness and then sudden depression is physiological since you are producing lots of the stress hormones (adrenaline/noradrenalin) and you are exhausting your body. I know this because you have reported the butterflies feeling, which is a direct result of digestion being inhibited due to the body’s preparation for the stress response. Not only that but you are also really weakening your immune system, this increases your chance of catching illnesses!

Now, you were not born like this, so something must have happened in your life to cause you to feel like this. You have physiological and psychological stress, irrational thinking, suicidal feelings and these are all really serious. If you leave it, they will just get worse and worse! Please seek professional counselling urgently, this will really help you face your problems and allow you to be able to lead a productive life and move on.

Visit your GP, he will point you in the right direction.

again, sorry for the crudeness of my first comment.

Regards

OMG! That sounds exactly like me. OP, I cannot emphasise enough how much you need to get help now. I didn't get help when I started feeling depressed and it got worse and worse. I'm still recovering. I regret so much being too ashamed to get help, yes it was something stupid that stopped me from getting help. I wouldn't wish what I went through (and am still going through) on anyone, so please see your GP ASAP. If you want to talk more, you're more than free to PM me. This is nowhere near my full story.

Reply 18

Anonymous #1

OP

AverageGuyOnTheStreet

OMG! That sounds exactly like me. OP, I cannot emphasise enough how much you need to get help now. I didn't get help when I started feeling depressed and it got worse and worse. I'm still recovering. I regret so much being too ashamed to get help, yes it was something stupid that stopped me from getting help. I wouldn't wish what I went through (and am still going through) on anyone, so please see your GP ASAP. If you want to talk more, you're more than free to PM me. This is nowhere near my full story.

Thanks, would it be ok if you told me what you're full story was? because sometimes it feels like i'm the only one who feels this way to this extent as none of my friends have ever been depressed before.

Reply 19

generalebriety

16

Anonymous

Thanks, would it be ok if you told me what you're full story was? because sometimes it feels like i'm the only one who feels this way to this extent as none of my friends have ever been depressed before.

I second AverageGuyOnTheStreet's post. I've also been depressed before. I didn't get help, and I'm not really sure I regret not getting help, but it would've made the last six years easier to cope with.

If you need help, go and see your GP and tell them you're feeling down. Tell them the symptoms and tell them how much it affects you. Does it affect your sleeping pattern (sleeping either significantly more or less, or erratic sleeping pattern)? What about your circadian rhythm in general (eating etc.)? Has it affected you for a significant (read: "two weeks or more") amount of time? It's all stuff you need to tell your doctor, and they will recommend you go to a counsellor. Mine did and I didn't go...

I think I suffer from something slightly different to you, but I've certainly had a lot of the same symptoms and the same underlying affliction, and if you want to PM me, feel free. :smile:

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