So I was just in the middle of my prayers, and a very worrying, uncomfortable thought of doubting the existence of God occurred in my mind. I've noticed these thoughts pop up quite frequently here and there, but 90% of time it doesn't. I would say I do believe in God, but I sometimes, very occasionally think for like 2 seconds, then quickly ask for forgiveness, that 'am I actually praying to something'? I am very uncomfortable even writing and thinking about it now, as I feel like I'm being apostolic which I hate to even imagine being.
Can someone tell me if these doubts will be forgiven by God?
The Almighty is closer to you than your jugular vein. He watches over you with loving mercy. His kindness and compassion are beyond our ability to understand.
Im sure God realises people question his existence daily
Doubting the existence of something you've had absolutely no tangible encounter with whatsoever is natural.
The more pertinent question would be why you would believe in a God that would punish you for something so petty.
If you're going to believe in God, do so in one that would be kind and compassionate. Otherwise, you're just creating necessary worry in your life.
Its pretty sad that as soon as you have a free thought you are imediately scared into thinking it was wrong.
God gave us free will to question.