I'm going through a rough patch right now, and have been for a long while. 2015 may have been my worst year ever, and I found myself constantly eating and so i started 2016 overweight and largely unhappy. I tried to turn my life around and eat healthier but I was always hungry. Usually I'd just throw caution to the wind and just eat. Promising "the diet starts tomorrow". But that never happened.But now I feel this obsession has gone in reverse. My weight is feeding my depression which should be creating this viscous circle, but it isn't. I'm becoming almost frightened to eat. I think I went out with some friends and they were all fit and in shape, and there I was looking like a balloon.I don't want to develop any weight loss disorder but I'm scared if these dark thoughts that are in my head carry on, I'm going to. I'm almost suicidal because of it all.What do I do? I need help.
Loughborough at number one