Hate my family so much

I realise now that I've always hated my family. I hate the way the treat me like I'm a **** head, I hate the way I get hit by my mum for no ****ing reason, I hate the reason I get treated like an outsider when I am one of the oldest kids here. My siblings(5 of them, 2 older and 3 younger) get pissed that I shout at my mum regularly- it's because I am sick of life and being part of this family.

I started to argue with my mum a lot after I found out my GCSE results- everyone in my house thought I was going to fail, my younger sister said to me 'I hope you fail', my mum regulary said I'm brain damaged as well as my older sisters. When they found out, they were shocked and said sorry for thinking I'm thick. I told my mum to stop calling me brain damaged and she quickly agreed.

Currently I'm doing my AS levels, I realised that no one here actually gives 2 ****s about me. There were some moments when I actually considered of committing suicide but I choose not to. My mum always wants to know where I am, who I'm with and why I come late from school. She doesn't care if it's my other siblings but it's only me. My older sister is lucky because she's away from this ****ty place.

I've gone depressed but I contain my depression at school, it's only moments when I really how ****ed up my life actually is. None of my friends know I'm neglected, hate my ****ing life and how **** my family is - only a few know less than 20% of it(generally the happy parts from years ago).

All I'm going to do is focus on my A levels, get banging grades and go uni and never keep contact with anyone here(maybe, 1 sibling). Do you think I'm over-reacting? I'm not sure whether or not I should become an estranged daughter.

I realise now that I've always hated my family. I hate the way the treat me like I'm a **** head, I hate the way I get hit by my mum for no ****ing reason, I hate the reason I get treated like an outsider when I am one of the oldest kids here. My siblings(5 of them, 2 older and 3 younger) get pissed that I shout at my mum regularly- it's because I am sick of life and being part of this family.

I started to argue with my mum a lot after I found out my GCSE results- everyone in my house thought I was going to fail, my younger sister said to me 'I hope you fail', my mum regulary said I'm brain damaged as well as my older sisters. When they found out, they were shocked and said sorry for thinking I'm thick. I told my mum to stop calling me brain damaged and she quickly agreed.

Currently I'm doing my AS levels, I realised that no one here actually gives 2 ***** about me. There were some moments when I actually considered of committing suicide but I choose not to. My mum always wants to know where I am, who I'm with and why I come late from school. She doesn't care if it's my other siblings but it's only me. My older sister is lucky because she's away from this *****y place.

I've gone depressed but I contain my depression at school, it's only moments when I really how ****ed up my life actually is. None of my friends know I'm neglected, hate my ****ing life and how **** my family is - only a few know less than 20% of it(generally the happy parts from years ago).

All I'm going to do is focus on my A levels, get banging grades and go uni and never keep contact with anyone here(maybe, 1 sibling). Do you think I'm over-reacting? I'm not sure whether or not I should become an estranged daughter.