i think im going mad

over the past few days i cant stop crying and feel that no one understands me. i am also very easily made angry and am very short-tempered. i've noticed a talk to god a lot and curse him for giving me a certain disease. this is spoiling relations with my family. i am also constantly depressed and anything makes me cry. i think im really losing it and dont know what to do. my parents thinki im just being stupid i though i feel i shud get help they wont let me get it because they think im just being an idiot. i dont know what to do. i also talk to myself in the mirror. i think im going mad and its killing me. posting as anon cuz this is just embarassing. :frown:

i think i need someone to talk to.

Reply 1

dh00001

is there a particular reason for this? what sparked these emotions?
feel free to keep posting in here but there are countless people and organisations that you can phone to vent. theres also a depression soc on tsr where people will be able to give you some really good advice.

Reply 2

Anonymous #1

i have a disease and am being treated for it but i feel like its not working and i want to go to a specialized doctor. my parents are insisting a continue with this treatment though and they just dont understand!!! im short-tempered and stay sutff thats not very nice to them, but it isnt THAT BAD and they make a big deal of it. today my dad complained that im egotistical and made me cry. i just cant stop crying. i will cry at odd moments of the day like a crazy person. i want a normal doctor, i want to be confident that i will get treated. but they dont understand and think they know best when they DONT and this is just a stupid unreliable doctor who has never treated my conidition before! im starting to hate my parents and myself and god and everyone else. i also have suicidal thoughts. god im really crazy and im scaring myself. i feel like i will end up in the mad house, and that scares me more and it all goes around in a cycle.

Reply 3

PinkMobilePhone

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Without meaning to sound cliched, I really think you ought to go and speak to a professional. It pretty much sounds like you're depressed, but I wouldn't like to say for sure.

Reply 4

dh00001

youre not crazy. not at all, dont think that. youre upset and it sounds asthough you are scared as well.
people are trying to help you, if you feel theyre upsetting you and not considering your feelings fully you need to tell them. but tell them calmly and in a nice way.
sometimes treatment doesnt show its working for ages and then suddenly shows large improvement. how many doctors are there in your area that would be able to treat you do you think?

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

there are LOADS but they chose this dodgy acupuncture crap instead of traditional methods. i had a huge fight with my mom in which she told me to "stuff my nerves up my a**" which just made me cry again and hate her. im afraid of this disease spreading and keep looking for signs every second and im really losing it. in fact im obsessed with looking for signs. my doctor has given me some herbs which cost loads and now i feel compelled to drink them because of all the money thats been spent. i am so angry i just want to rip someone apart but instead this anger manifests itself in tears. i feel sorry for myself and cant stop.

Reply 6

dh00001

hm im going to have to start agreeing with PinkMobilePhone. you should phone some one professional and see what alternatives are available to you.
your mum does sound abit unreasonable but maybe shes scared for you too.

Reply 7

Talya

Your parents can't make you have acupuncture instead of traditional therapies. Make an appointment with your GP... alone!

Reply 8

Paperfolders57

OP got issues which dont seem to be working perhaps try something different!!

Reply 9

Just some guy

How old are you? That and depending on how serious your disease is forcing you to eschew traditional treatments for accupunture could be considered criminal neglect on your parents behalf :s

I assume you're registered with a GP yes? Is there any way you could make an appointment with them without your parents finding out?

Reply 10

Anonymous #1

im 17. i will see my GP somehow cuz i cant take this anymore. its going to drive me insane.

Reply 11

annsmith

You must take meds for your disease and also anti depressents.

Reply 12

AverageGuyOnTheStreet

so much. You are not going mad. Depression is very common. You won't end up in a mental hospital either. Just try and go to your GP as soon as possible. It is scary but it is the best thing you can do. I would go alone if your parents are causing you trouble. I never let my parents come to my appointments. They don't even know how bad I'm feeling most of the time.

And, annsmith, if the OP is 17, they won't be able to get antidepressants. They brought in a law not so long ago (from what I heard on the depression soc) because in some cases antidepressants *can* cause symptoms to worsen in some cases and some teenagers have committed suicide on the back of this. So now you need to be 18 to be prescribed antidepressants.

But I am always on the end of a PM if you want to talk. :hugs:

Reply 13

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Anonymous

im 17. i will see my GP somehow cuz i cant take this anymore. its going to drive me insane.

oh honey

I know it feels like your going mad, but you're not. Parents find this kind of thing hard to understand, but dont let them make you feel stupid or that this is just a simple thing that'll pass. Can you talk to anyone? school councellor even without your parents knowing. And remember there is nothing wrong with crying! Maybe write some of your feelings down that seems to help.

Reply 14

Pseudomuse

at the end of the day, your parents do not know how you are feeling inside and have no right to say you are an idiot or stupid. How dare they say that. Depression is very common and it is treatable, but you need to take charge, and make that appoinment yourself.

at the end of the day, if you are diagnosed with depression, and your parents don't accept that, you should belive your doctor, because they know alot more then what your parents do on the matter.

Reply 15

Anonymous #1

thanks for ur replies guys. im feeling better now and have stopped crying. its not gona help so i will have to pull myself together and suck it up. thanks again guys u helped so much cuz i really felt like i was losing it and wud end up on neuroleptics in a madhouse. :redface: