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    Hi, some maybe necessary history.

    With the exception of a drunken mutual fellatio at 16 I've always had sex with and lusted after women.

    Due to a lack of confidence I didn't lose my virginity till my mid-twenties, to an escort. Then two years later after using dating sites I gained a little confidence and slept with eight women in a one year period some from work, some from t'web , during which my erections were mostly fine, then there was another massive self-esteem crash and so no sex for two years. Since then my erections have always been weak to non-existent, only becoming wankable if watching shemale or crossdresser porn (which I've always watched). I then had sex (was just hard enough) with a shemale escort a few months ago, which I suppose was fine. Her penis was nice enough but I was more attracted to the breast implants, long hair and other female features.

    The thing is now I can only I become (somewhat) aroused by either watching shemale/CD porn or imagining myself as a women getting banged by guys. The knob does arouse me, and the thought of being penetrated and giving blow-jobs, but I'm not really attracted to guys faces or bodies and don't have much of a desire to kiss a guy. When I see a woman who's my type in the street I can get that swoony, lovey 'yum' feeling, like I want to kiss them, but there is nothing happening in my trousers. The same when I watch porn with just women in it. Pussy does nothing for me anymore. Back in the day women got me as hard as Krupp steel. Even my erections with transsexual/gay/as a woman fantasies are not that strong but they're the only things that work.

    I don't know if this is linked to a return of low self esteem (the being submissive in bed to guys) or if I'm actually just gay or a bit trans. I wouldn't have a problem being labeled gay or bisexual, but I'm just really not sure what's going on or how to proceed from here. Ta.
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    Hi, some maybe necessary history.

    With the exception of a drunken mutual fellatio at 16 I've always had sex with and lusted after women.

    Due to a lack of confidence I didn't lose my virginity till my mid-twenties, to an escort. Then two years later after using dating sites I gained a little confidence and slept with eight women in a one year period some from work, some from t'web , during which my erections were mostly fine, then there was another massive self-esteem crash and so no sex for two years. Since then my erections have always been weak to non-existent, only becoming wankable if watching shemale or crossdresser porn (which I've always watched). I then had sex (was just hard enough) with a shemale escort a few months ago, which I suppose was fine. Her penis was nice enough but I was more attracted to the breast implants, long hair and other female features.

    The thing is now I can only I become (somewhat) aroused by either watching shemale/CD porn or imagining myself as a women getting banged by guys. The knob does arouse me, and the thought of being penetrated and giving blow-jobs, but I'm not really attracted to guys faces or bodies and don't have much of a desire to kiss a guy. When I see a woman who's my type in the street I can get that swoony, lovey 'yum' feeling, like I want to kiss them, but there is nothing happening in my trousers. The same when I watch porn with just women in it. Pussy does nothing for me anymore. Back in the day women got me as hard as Krupp steel. Even my erections with transsexual/gay/as a woman fantasies are not that strong but they're the only things that work.

    I don't know if this is linked to a return of low self esteem (the being submissive in bed to guys) or if I'm actually just gay or a bit trans. I wouldn't have a problem being labeled gay or bisexual, but I'm just really not sure what's going on or how to proceed from here. Ta.
    Krupp steel haha
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    Too much information...........think I'll call it a night, too late in the day to be lurking on TSR
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    I don't think The Student Room, a student forum filled with students are going to be able to advise you much on your issue :rofl:
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    that said, i've seen some pretty weird late night threads on here
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    (Original post by Zargabaath)
    I don't think The Student Room, a student forum filled with students are going to be able to advise you much on your issue :rofl:
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    that said, i've seen some pretty weird late night threads on here
    I couldn't find a suitable forum around the web where I was likely to get a response, and there are a lot of polypanbi-genderqueer types on here. I thought they might have some useful input.
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    RobML how come you went anon?
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I couldn't find a suitable forum around the web where I was likely to get a response, and there are a lot of polypanbi-genderqueer types on here. I thought they might have some useful input.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    Hi, some maybe necessary history.

    With the exception of a drunken mutual fellatio at 16 I've always had sex with and lusted after women.

    Due to a lack of confidence I didn't lose my virginity till my mid-twenties, to an escort. Then two years later after using dating sites I gained a little confidence and slept with eight women in a one year period some from work, some from t'web , during which my erections were mostly fine, then there was another massive self-esteem crash and so no sex for two years. Since then my erections have always been weak to non-existent, only becoming wankable if watching shemale or crossdresser porn (which I've always watched). I then had sex (was just hard enough) with a shemale escort a few months ago, which I suppose was fine. Her penis was nice enough but I was more attracted to the breast implants, long hair and other female features.

    The thing is now I can only I become (somewhat) aroused by either watching shemale/CD porn or imagining myself as a women getting banged by guys. The knob does arouse me, and the thought of being penetrated and giving blow-jobs, but I'm not really attracted to guys faces or bodies and don't have much of a desire to kiss a guy. When I see a woman who's my type in the street I can get that swoony, lovey 'yum' feeling, like I want to kiss them, but there is nothing happening in my trousers. The same when I watch porn with just women in it. Pussy does nothing for me anymore. Back in the day women got me as hard as Krupp steel. Even my erections with transsexual/gay/as a woman fantasies are not that strong but they're the only things that work.

    I don't know if this is linked to a return of low self esteem (the being submissive in bed to guys) or if I'm actually just gay or a bit trans. I wouldn't have a problem being labeled gay or bisexual, but I'm just really not sure what's going on or how to proceed from here. Ta.
    You are probably trans-attracted, but not gay if you aren't attracted to males.
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    RobML how come you went anon?
    I thought I'd reached peak acceptable creepiness with the long hair and such, after which knowledge of further perversion would result in an acute decline in e-minge.
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    Wtf did I just read
    This one.
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    I thought I'd reached peak acceptable creepiness with the long hair and such, after which knowledge of further perversion would result in an acute decline in e-minge.
    Did someone turn you down?
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    (Original post by kkboyk)
    You are probably trans-attracted, but not gay if you aren't attracted to males.
    But I am attracted to male genitalia and the thought of being banged by a male (to feel like a woman), though not really males themselves. I don't look at them the same way, but wanting to be banged by a man seems pretty gay.
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    If I were you I wouldn't worry about it, you don't have to feel pressured to put a label on what your attracted to and just accept that you have a broader range of sexual desires. Sometimes you may feel more attracted to transgender and sometimes more to females. Try not to base your self esteem off how much sex you have, when you're not in a relationship it just seems to work like that, sometimes your having lots of sexual partners and then other times non, can be annoying but it happened once it's gonna happen again.
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    Tbh can anyone really say they're 100% a sexuality, I think pretty much everyone's a bit fluid.
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    Wtf? I know I'm older now but still.... this better now be some dumb **** for twitter.... I at least would of thought slang would make sense.
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    Sounds like low self-esteem and not feeling 'manly' as it were. You're sexual desires are there but you're only getting feelings from extreme situations. Sounds like you still are straight or maybe bi. I'd get your testosterone levels checked mate. You can get stuff called avena sativa (think that's the right spelling) to increase your natural testosterone levels. Also, hitting the gym will most likely increase your self-esteem and make you feel more confident in the sack with a lady. Don't need to become a beast, but the gym really does increase your sex drive, confidence and erections. ''It'll turn you into a goddamn sexual tyrannosaur; just like me!'' (Jesse Ventura from Predator ) That's the remedy I'd think, but its just my opinion!
 
 
 
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