Most Depressing Moment of My Life so Far

Although I doubt there is anything that can be said that will actually help. I just need to hear a few people say that I need to relax.

Basically, about a week ago I started talking to the girl of my dreams which I was in love with (or so I am sure I was) over 4 years ago. 4 years ago she decided to kick me out of her life because.. well, just because she needed to change or something. Anyway, we went out on a date and I ended up kissing her and everything seemed great between us. Over the last week things have been really nice.

Anyway, last night I got really drunk and smoked some bad (what I can only assume as bad) pot. I then went to her house (with her permission) and ended up having to climb up a wall to get to her room. That was apparently the easy part.

I'm a virgin and in my state I almost forgot to think about my physical state. Basically, I ended up in her room, drunk and high (not in a good way) and even though I was mentally very ready.. Well, I just couldn't physically react. I'm not sure if it was nerves, fear, stress (so much **** happening at once, including the fact that her parents were next door and any noise could mean I would have to throw myself out of a window about 3 metres from the floor)..

Anyway, I ended having to leave, still a virgin and to be honest, I have never felt so depressed or embarrassed in my life. When I got home and eventually got to sleep, I had nightmares and haven't been able to do anything all day.

I just feel .. so ****ed up. I wait for a moment like this for god knows how many years, and when I FINALLY get the opportunity (with a ****ing amazing girl too) I just fail miserably.

I guess I really hope that it was the weed, or the alcohol, or the nerves, or the stress, or everything together.

Of course, a possible answer to this thread is most suitably "you are an idiot" but I would appreciate it if you could spare those comments for a day when I am feeling a little better about myself, and my life. Thank you for listening (if you did).

Reply 1

Ginger_Rogers

How has she reacted to it?

Reply 2

Segat1

Jesus, mate. I'm not surprised you couldnt't. Alcohol + pot + scary parents = circumstances that will affect your bits.

Reply 3

Trigger

oh dear, im with seggy, thereds not need to be embarresed it would take a super heor to perform under those conditions, you sound the old romantic thouhg :p:

Try and get some time together when her olds arent sleeping next door :wink:

Reply 4

Anonymous #1

Ginger_Rogers

How has she reacted to it?

From what I can remember, she was supportive. Just seemed a little confused. She knows I was under the influence of pot and alcohol.

Reply 5

Trigger

Well if shes as great as you say she is, itl happen dude :biggrin:

Reply 6

Anonymous #1

Thanks for the replying. Just need to be reminded that the world isn't over just yet. Just feels like it.

I really just cannot believe that this happened with the first girl I ever fell in love with, and easily the most amazing girl I have ever met. I'll try to cheer up a bit, that'll help I hope.

Reply 7

Ginger_Rogers

Anonymous

From what I can remember, she was supportive. Just seemed a little confused. She knows I was under the influence of pot and alcohol.

There you are then. She isn't making a big deal out of it, so neither should you! It happens to everybody, if she is as lovely as you are saying she is then she will just be looking forward to the next time :biggrin:

Reply 8

Ross_j

we've all had these problems at one time or another haha, frustrating at the time but nothing you can do about it dont get stressed about it.

Reply 9

mrsmann

Stop complaining for god's sake. You'll still have another chance. Think of us who don't have girls for sex :frown:

Reply 10

Anonymous #1

mrsmann

Stop complaining for god's sake. You'll still have another chance. Think of us who don't have girls for sex :frown:

Another chance? I suppose so. Keep in mind I said I was a virgin and I have never had a chance before. So I know what it means to "not have girls for sex"...

Anyway, regarding pot or weed, I thought there was the same? It was weed. Where I live (Switzerland) there is no difference between pot and weed, just different names. But to clarify it was the plant, placed into a blunt. But my friend said it was not very good and I almost never smoke so I think perhaps that was the cause of problem.

Anyway, just really upset me that this happened.. Needed to vent. Finally get a chance to have sex, and blow it. It's almost tragically funny.

Reply 11

Insignificant B

Well... sex is not everything... Try thinking of having a relationship... Yes you blew it... that is because sex is the only thing you were thinking of... And the weed wouldnt have helped :tongue:

Next time try going in sober soldier!!

Mike.

Reply 12

Anonymous #1

~wibble~

Well... sex is not everything... Try thinking of having a relationship... Yes you blew it... that is because sex is the only thing you were thinking of... And the weed wouldnt have helped :tongue:

Next time try going in sober soldier!!

Mike.

Sounds like advice I like :smile:

Reply 13

Anonymous #1

Trigger, wise words, wise words.

Anyway, 5 minutes left until this day is over for me. I'll try to take tomorrow as a new positive day :smile:

. Everyday is a new day, right?

Also, we ought to speed up evolution to the point where our mind completely controls our body. Damn those drugs!

Reply 14

dead antics

it happens to the best of us

Reply 15

Trigger

Anonymous

Trigger, wise words, wise words.

Anyway, 5 minutes left until this day is over for me. I'll try to take tomorrow as a new positive day :smile:

. Everyday is a new day, right?

Also, we ought to speed up evolution to the point where our mind completely controls our body. Damn those drugs!

no worries :smile:

Reply 16

hanadeka2002

If I was that girl I think I'd understand the problem given the circumstances. If she's half decent she'll forget it, though I would question your decision to get drunk and stoned before having sex!

Reply 17

Anonymous #1

chocolateflake99

If I was that girl I think I'd understand the problem given the circumstances. If she's half decent she'll forget it, though I would question your decision to get drunk and stoned before having sex!

I don't think it was really a decision. First of all I didn't know I would be seeing her for sure. Secondly, I knew I was going to drink but the smoking was not planned at all, and I smoked when I was already drunk. I really regret smoking, I think that was the cause of the problem.

I suppose I should have also mentioned I am far from being a smooth confident guy.. So I was also really nervous which adds to everything. But agreed, it was stupid. :frown:

Reply 18

ASprinkleOfPixieDust

Isn't weed/pot/whatever known to cause this problem the OP experienced-I'm not sure but I thought I'd heard something about that before, sorry if I'm wrong.

OP you sound like a really nice guy and your concern and embarassment only go to show how much you like this girl. I'm sure she won't hold it against you. Best of luck.

P.S if you want a girls point of view-personally I wouldn't be bothered at all if I was in this girls position.

Reply 19

shauny

Haha, just have a laugh about it mate, she won't care/remember it in the whole scheme of things anyway. Just shag her some other time when you're not in a mess! :biggrin:

It happens to all lads at some point, don't make a big thing of it. :smile:

..shauny

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