I think I might have a really bad anxiety problem. I tried to convince myself that there was nothing majorly wrong and that I was ok and that I can get through this, but I keep breaking down and getting panic attacks. Today was horrible, because I was going to the doctor's on the bus and the bus journey was taking such a long time and I knew I was going to be late. I know it's not a big deal but I think I had a panic attack and felt so guilty about being late that I scratched myself on the my arms, which I know sounds stupid, but I always do it when I'm anxious and guilty.
I went into the doctor's afterwards because even though I was too late for my appointment I didn't know what to do, and I spoke with one of the doctors because I was still panicking when I got there and she said that I did have a panic attack and that I need help and that I should go to counselling again. There is this job want to do next year but the doctors say that it's so stressful that I won't be able to handle it the way I am, and I think they're right, but I feel terrible because I hare letting this get in the way of my life and I wish I could be strong and be able to deal with things like everyone else can.
I think I have a guilt complex or something, because I feel guilty all the time. I know I should get help, but I'm worried, because when I was in the doctor's today they were asking me so many questions and it was horrible, and they want me to go again tomorrow and take my mum, but I really don't want my parents to know, because my sister has problems with depression and self harming and they already have enough to worry about with her.
I also feel worried because they asked me if I'd been mistreated at home, which I haven't, but I don't want my parents to get into trouble. There is no reason for me to feel like this; my parents are together, I've never been abused, my parents are really supportive, I've always done well in school, and I don't know why I would be feeling like this and I feel so guilty for being a burden and wasting everyone's time.
Sorry that went on so long; I just had to write this all down somewhere. It's ok if you don't have any advice. Thank you
Anxiety and feeling guilty all the time Watch
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- 01-01-1970 02:00
- 13-05-2016 22:17
I think the best course of action is indeed to seek professional help. Finding the right counselor can be daunting, I'd be lying if I said that no one has ever had a bad experience. The important thing to remember is that mental health, like any other, is a disease that can be treated but it takes time. That time can be 20 days, it can be 20 months, it could even be 20 years, but it works. You're advised not to stop a pill prescription early, the same can be said about therapy. There's no shame in seeking the help you need.