So I've been with my girlfriend for almost 2 years now, she told me about a year ago that she sometimes goes through like these depression "phases" throughout her entire life, one time self harming.
At around the start of this year her Grandma died and this is when I first started noticing her mood changes, she would feel down and just not care about anything and also get very angry at me for no reason.
5 months later and it's getting worse and worse every day, she tells me about how she wants to kill herself and how she doesn't care about anything, including me. I've tried to be there for her when she's feeling down but it usually ends in a fight as she'll hurl insults at me and expect me to have answers when I don't know what to do.
A few months ago I suggested her to see a doctor, she did, and after a few weeks she was put on some online program. She hated it, and after a couple of weeks she just stopped going on it all together, saying its useless and doesn't help.
The stress from everyone at this time of year is higher than ever, and I'm tired of this battle and I don't know what to do, I feel like I'm losing this battle and she feels like it too.
...for the 2nd time this year